For the Run of It

Motivation and Determination

2012-01-25T07:32:00.000-08:00

Katie, over at Runs for Cookies (here) had a great post the other day called "The Difference Between Motivation and Determination" (here). It is awesome and you should check it out. I agree with her views 100%.

I do enjoy creating little motivators for myself, but I know that determination is what will get me to my goals. I thought I would share a couple things which do serve as motivators for me.

Inspiration board

Race bibs and a 10K medal

My half marathon display

My treadmill is in our basement and unfortunately I'll be running there for awhile yet since we just got a huge amount of snow. The Mill faces the corner and the walls are red.

B-O-R-I-N-G

I have an upcoming project and that is to decorate those walls. I bought two magnetic white boards just like my inspiration board above and I'm going to hang one on each wall, and then fill each with motivating and inspiring items like pictures and quotes. I'm really looking forward to having something more fun to stare at!! I'll share some photos when I am done.

Do you have a treadmill? Do you put motivators near by?

Yikes!!! and a DIY

2012-01-24T06:21:00.000-08:00

Yikes! I've updated my weight tracker here on the site through December and it's not pretty. Skeered!

I wanted to share a little DIY medal display. It is so simple and perfect for those of us without many medals, actually 1 medal.

I ordered a race photo from my half marathon last July (cha-ching!) and I wanted to display it. Then I had this puny little medal (seriously, those race medals are not that cool) that I wanted to put somewhere also. I came up with this.

Luckily there's a nice blank spot on the corner of the photo and the medal seems to be just the right size for that spot. I looped the medal ribbon around the easel of the frame and wah-lah, perfect display for my home office.

How do you display your precious race medal/photo?

Disconnecting and a New Training Plan

2012-01-23T06:45:00.000-08:00

Do you ever feel like you're too connected? Too much electronics? I have felt like that a lot lately (says the girl who's selling, selling, selling on eBay in order to buy an iPad).

I have my iPhone connected to my employer's network. Part of that is because I am out of the office on Fridays and I work at home a fair amount. I want to be able to read and respond to email quickly. But is it necessary? My employer does not require this of me, I just decided since I've got the phone, might as well do it. Well, over the weekend I disconnected my email and it was fabulous!! I think I will at least disconnect on Weekends and maybe at a certain time each night. You'll probably say just stop reading it. That would be smart if I could do it, but I can't. If I see the notification, then I simply must read it. I'm weird like that.

I also tend to let email interrupt me at work. I can be working away and then an email comes in and I let it pull me away from what I was doing into whatever someone might need. I pride myself on being a quick responder, but sometimes I wonder if other aspects of my work suffer. It might be better to work for a solid hour on a project and then read and respond to email. I wonder if having set times for reading email might be more efficient.

Multitasking. This is something I always see on resumes as a strength or skill. But is it really possibly to multitask. I watched a time management seminar by Randy Pausch (here) who put that into perspective. You really cannot do more than one thing well at a time. You're actually doing multiple things badly. I do think it is a skill to be able to deal with interruptions efficiently while not letting it derail your efforts on other tasks, but to simultaneously do multiple things at once, I don't believe it's possible. Except maybe listen to music while working, but do you really hear the music?

I am one of those people who never sits and does one thing when I am at home. If I'm watching TV, I'm also reading my Kindle or working on my computer. Sometimes I'm not focusing on the TV at all, but it's on in the background, I'm reading my Kindle, and playing several games of Words with Friends (UN: LoriV518). I believe this "multitasking" is not helping me relax at all. Why I have been unable to veg out with a book or movie lately is unknown, but I plan to make a change. My brain needs to slow down and take five, even if it's only for thirty minutes. It's not necessarily disconnecting, but it's slowing down to breathe a little, and slow the brain from switching gears every five seconds. I look forward to trying this.

This week I plan to start the Run 10K program I have on my iPhone. I'm actually going to start on week five where the run/walk intervals are even. Each day this week looks like this (I'm not sure how that works out to 68 minutes because there will be a 5 minute walk at the end too, but we'll see):

I am looking forward to following this program--I'll be doing weeks 5-13 over the next 9 weeks. I think it's going to help get me back into running regularly by having a set program to follow. It's very similar to the Couch to 5K program concept. And intervals are nice for weight loss. :-)

Do you need to disconnect? Do you think there is such a thing at efficient "multitasking"? Are you connected to your employer's network via your cell phone?

Wanted: trade used running shoes for a new blog design?

2012-01-22T09:34:00.000-08:00

Anyone interested in a trade? I have a pair of Adidas Supernova Sequence 3 Running shoes that I would like to trade with somone who can make me a new blog design. I was going to sell the shoes on eBay, but this trade would benefit me more. These shoes have around 100 miles on them and are size 8.5. Anyone, anyone? Contact me!

Do you love Lara Bars? Here's a giveaway!

2012-01-22T09:29:00.000-08:00

Stephanie Anne over at Running to Health is hosting a Lara Bar giveaway! Enter here! Yummy!

Wordless Wednesday

2012-01-18T06:40:00.000-08:00

Don't Mind Me

2012-01-16T21:54:00.000-08:00

So I accidentally published a post tonight that I didn't mean to. Back when I was doing my Welcome 2012 post I started writing and it turned into a major downer. I should have deleted it, but I saved it with the same title, except I added "The Shitty Version at the end. Hah! Now I've published it accidentally. Whoops! Well, oh well. I have deleted it from the blog, but I guess it's still in the Readers so whatev. I live with it. Some of you can get a glimpse of the real downer me from that day.

Let's get this year started!! Goals 2012

2012-01-16T14:54:00.000-08:00

From Thanksgiving until mid-January, there is a hustle and bustle about our house. First the holidays, then birthdays. And then I'm done until November. My son's birthday was yesterday (he's hit the double digits now) and that marks the official end to our hustle season! Now I feel like I can relax more and think about me. I hope that brings about good things for both weight loss and running for me!

I've been putting some goals together for 2012. These are things I'd like to accomplish in 2012, not resolutions.

First, the non-health related goals.

1. Finish our Disney scrapbook for our 2008 trip! I have the pictures organized, I have all the supplies, I just need to take time to put it together.

2. Crochet an aghan. I used to be an avid crocheter and then once everyone and their dog had a blanket from me, I kind of gave it up. But I actually really love crocheting and would like to get back into it. It's a great thing to do in front of the TV, that's for sure. I already have yarn I bought a couple years ago, I just need to pick a pattern and get busy!

3. Sell stuff on eBay that is just sitting around. This is already underway. In the last two weeks I've made $442.16 by selling stuff on eBay. Everything from DVDs to a Coach purse. I have just a few more active listings and a few more things to list and then I'll be good for another couple years. It's fun but I get kind of burnt out on it.

4. Buy an iPad. This goes along with #3 and is what I plan to do with all the money I've made. I still have some Christmas money, too. I'm super excited! I do plan to wait until after the next release/upgrade to purchase. Sometimes I wish new electronics didn't come out so quickly!

5. We have two bathrooms that need paint!! I would also like new towels and decor for each. The third bathroom needs new tile, grout or both. I want to ge these projects done!

6. Consistently save money. This is a joint effort by both my husband and myself. We are finally getting back on our feet a little bit and it feels good. The next step is to put money back into savings and not accrue any additional debt! This includes saving separately for Christmas which is a huge expense for us because we love it so much! I want to start pre-planning for it instead of recovering after the fact. Save. Save. Save. Of all my non-health goals, this is my biggest one!

Now for the ones we're really here about: the health goals!

1. Reach my goal weight. This is the big one and seems so tough right now!

2. Once I get to my goal weight, I want to submit my story to Weight Watchers. I have always wanted to be a featured success story. I know I have gone back and forth about my continued relationship with WW, but I am going to stick with them, either by going to meetings or simply as an online member. I don't have control whether they pick my story, but I do have control over reaching my goal weight and submitting my story.

3. Consistently cross train. Ultimately, I want to be a runner, but I don't want to just run. Cross training to me means any other intentional exercise that isn't running. It may mean bike riding, elliptical, DVDs or simply walking on the treadmill. This activity isn't replacing running, however, it's in addition to running.

4. Run 600 miles this year. I was under 600 both last year and 2010. 2011 was actually lowest given my crash and burn during the last two months. I have also had a slow start this January, but I can always make up the mileage. I'm resolved to get better! A monthly average of 50 miles should be doable, however, even while adding other activity.

5. Run a sub 2:30 half marathon. Yes, I plan to do another half this year, the same See Jane Run event as last year. I also plan to go out with a goal of 2:30 again. I hope this is my year.

Well, I'm a little late to the 2012 goal party, but here's to all of us reaching our goals!

What's your top goal this year, non-health related?

Terribly Sad

2012-01-16T08:27:00.000-08:00

So many of us are saddened to hear of the missing Montana teacher Sherry Arnold who is now presumed dead. Such a tragedy! Those of us who are solo morning runners are no doubt freaked out.

When I was in my early twenties, I used to run alone outside in the mornings, and I never thought about safety even a little bit. Course that running stint didn't last long so it wasn't a big deal. As I'm older now and have a child to think about, I admit to being a little bit more cautious when it comes to running alone in the mornings. I usually always run in the neighborhood so that even if I'm alone, I'm not out in a completely uninhabited area. But I admit that I can probably exercise more safety precautions. (Lately I've been really safe in the mornings...all snug and warm in my bed!!)

This tragedy is a reminder for all of us. Running alone in the morning or late at night is not the safest thing in the world so please be careful.

PS. I need a running partner!!

Perspective

2012-01-13T13:27:00.000-08:00

Something is amazing to me. Right now I feel like crap. Isn't that amazing? Okay, that's not the amazing part. The amazing part, and my amazing, I mean devastatingly terrible, is that when I reached this same weight on my way down, I felt fantastic. Now that I've reached this weight on my way up, I feel craptastic! It's an amazing perspective, although, I could do without having experienced it. :(

Today I ran on the treadmill. I planned two miles and I finished two miles. The speed was okay and I felt okay, but my body is definitely not where it was. My lungs have definitely lost some of their stamina, but my legs felt pretty good. I plan to run another two tomorrow. Here's hoping that happens!! I am in control.

I was not, however, in control last night. Well, it actually started in the late afternoon. Long about 4:00 it became apparent that I would be working late into the evening and since I didn't prepare for that I had no extra food with me. I was already starving. I made it all of about 15 minutes after the realizing before I was digging into the bagels in the office kitchen. I'm not going to even tell you all that I ate between about 4:30 and 11:30 last night (I finally left the office at 9:45). The last thing I ate was part of a bowl of Honey Bunches of Oats with Almonds. I poured the bowl, added the milk and then beached myself upon the couch. I was going to take some time to find a picture of myself for my son's school project so I started perusing the options, and then I found this one:

That there is the 75 pound coat (my other cat, not Tucker; she's not really allowed on the bathroom counter) and me with skinny thighs! OMG, seeing the picture and remembering how I felt when I took it had me putting the bowl of cereal down quickly. I ended up dumping about 90% of down the disposal.

I wonder if putting that picture everywhere I go would keep me from picking up the cereal in the first place? Thinking about it is certainly helping me today. The truth is in the run.

2 Years Later and is it a Coincidence?

2012-01-12T14:09:00.000-08:00

So after my post last night, I was really telling myself to believe in myself. And then this morning when I headed over to the WW website, I found this.

Do you think it's a coincidence?

As I said yesterday, today is my two year anniversary of starting this journey. Unfortunately, I have gained some weight so I'm not as light as I was a year ago, but I'm still 60 pounds lighter than I was two years ago. I want 2012 to be my year. 2012! I love even number years so this year is already my friend!
I became a lifetime member of Weight Watchers in the Fall of 1999 with a goal weight of 130. I would like to officially change my goal weight to 145 once I reach it and then weight in monthly at Weight Watchers as a lifetime member. I also heard that lifetime members get free e-tools. Those things are good incentives to keep going and not give up. Keeping up with that monthly check-in will also help me maintain when I get to that point.

That said, I'm not sure if it's best to continue with Weight Watchers online or actually become a meetings member. I have said several times that the meetings aren't really for me, but it seems like they have a new open door format where you can go, weigh in, talk with the leaders, get materials and not sit through a meeting. There is a new center on my way home that has open hours each day for drop ins. I like this idea. I like it a lot, in fact. It would be a nice way to find a leader that I connect with and then maybe meetings would be good for me. For now, I am an online member but I will keep you posted on what I decide. Online is more in my budget right now so I'd kinda like to stay with that for awhile, but I also want to stay motivated so if I need to change it up, I will.

Today is a good day. I did not get up to exercise, but I am eating ON PLAN and I'm drinking my water faithfully. Quick note, I'm not sure if I've mentioned it, but I am a water bottle addict. I have no less than 5 purple water bottles and 3 pink ones. Here's my latest acquisition:

My husband says this bottle is exactly like one I have. Well, no it isn't. The one I have has a black lid while this one has white. And this one is my favorite right now! So there!

And just because I made that proclamation so many moons ago about this blog needing more pictures, here's your daily cuteness.

That is my kitty, Tucker, who nearly died over New Year's weekend. He's doing so much better!! I am so thankful. He's wearing his "party collar" until he gets his stitches out tomorrow. Last night he was clearly helping me work. He also loves purple and chooses that color for his pens.

Note to Self: Believe

2012-01-11T23:42:00.000-08:00

Dear Lori,

You can do it. You will do it. Do not give up. You cannot give up. You cannot go back to that place. Nothing tastes as good as a run feels. A long, slow run is exhilarating. A long, slow snack...not so much. Tomorrow it will be two years since you started this journey, but anniversaries don't matter. Stop thinking you'll "start" that day. Just do it. ~~Keep~~ Start moving forward. Anyday and everyday. You can and will achieve your goals. First, believe. Second, achieve. As Ali Vincent says, "Believe it. Be it." You've lost faith in yourself, but you can get it back. Get on the treadmill, eat less, and believe. Before you know it, you'll be there. And that will be great because there are some nice clothes in your closet that miss you.

Love,
Me

What do you do with retired running gear?

2012-01-11T09:56:00.000-08:00

First of all, thanks for continuing to read this blog and welcoming me back!

So on to today's topic...

I have a couple of race belts which I no longer use (not because I'm not running currently) but because I found something that works better for me. So now I have these perfectly good race belts sitting around. In my organized world, anything sitting around without a use is called clutter. I HATE clutter. Both of the belts are Amphipod and one his a hydration belt. I talked about both of the belts here. Both have been washed so they're clean, the bottles have been and can be sanitized. So the question remains: what do I do with these things. Surely someone else could benefit from them, right? Would it be weird to offer them up on this blog, or should I just give them to charity? I would love it if someone could get use out of them because they are great belts. Please tell me, would anyone want these belts, or is it weird to offer up a used item? What say you?

What do you do with retired running gear that is in perfectly good, working condition?

MY Blog is for ME

2012-01-09T20:52:00.000-08:00

So my first week of *trying* to watch it while getting back on the treadmill yielded one run and a gain of .6 pounds. Go me! Seriously, how lame am I? And I mean that in the sweetest possible way, I mean, I love myself, I don't loathe myself. At least I'm trying not to. It's very hard. Dangit.

I read a great post today by Tricia and Endurance isn't only Physical (here). She put into words so much of what I've been feeling or was feeling during the latter part of last year regarding this blog. I found myself wanting a successful blog, a blog people turned to as a resource, a blog businesses relied upon for product reviews. I kept measuring myself up to this standard (that I created in my own pinhead) and when I wasn't meeting it the mark, I felt like a failure. And I kind of let that feeling drive me away from this blog. And I've really missed this blog.

I'm a journaler (not a word according to blogger). I have kept a journal ever since I was in junior high (1988). I love to write. I'm not necessarily a good writer, but I love to put my thoughts on a page. My most favorite medium for journaling (another nonword) is pen and paper which takes a lot longer and makes my hand hurt. It also doesn't come with spell check. But it doesn't matter because my journal is for me and me alone and it doesn't matter if I write THERE instead of THEIR or something like that. Of course, while I say it's for me, I do write it always with the sense that someone will read it someday. Someday, after I'm gone, either my husband (probably not) or my son (maybe) or my son's wife (nosey bitch) will probably read it and for that reason I always keep things fairly calm. I never say too much about one person or some persons for fear that information could get out to the wrong people someday. Because the truth of it is that I could die tomorrow and my journals would still be here for any inquiring mind. So I keep it real, but I also keep it nice, so to speak, always writing with the idea that someone will read it someday.

That same thing holds true for this blog except I seem to not be as comfortable writing for some reason. I started the blog fairly anonymously and never told anyone about it except my husband. After a few months I told my best friend and then another friend. But that is all. Well, then last fall a couple people that I actually know in real life became followers of this blog, and I found that it kind of shut me up, but also made me want the successful blog even more. Like, I could be cool with my blog and what not. Well, turns out, that's not for me. This blog is for me and I guess in order to keep it going and to keep doing what I want to do, I have to not care as much who is reading and what they are thinking. I need to be able to be completely honest with myself on this journey. Because it's my journey. Yes, if you get something out of it, or if I can help you or inspire you, I will love that so much. But if you hate me, think I'm a dork, a Negative Nelly or Debbie Downer, well, that's too bad. Because this is me. All of me. My flaws but also my gifts and talents and attributes.

That being said, over the weekend I lost a follower (I have no idea whom, it's not like I keep an list of names or anything). Why should losing a nameless follower bugs me when I know that the number of followers means nothing. But still, I guess I have the overwhelming desire to be liked. Please like me. Like my blog.

Okay, anyway, this blog is mine and I need to get back to it. And what I need it for right (just typed 'write' instead of 'right'--wouldn't have mattered in the journal) now is to help me get back on track. I am starting to feel a bit like I have failed, or I have relapsed, or something like it. I have said before that I feel like I am a food addict. I am addicted to food, much like others become addicted to cigarettes or alcohol. I honestly feel like I've relapsed or fallen off the wagon. And I need to get back on. I cannot go back to obesity; I cannot go back to the couch. I will get back to where I was AND beyond. In the meantime, I will use this blog to ramble on and on about what it's going to take to get there. And while I hope you're along for the ride, I can't worry about making YOU happy along the way.

Why do you blog? Are you a guarded blogger, or a tell all blogger?

Welcome 2012

2012-01-03T23:15:00.000-08:00

So, I'm back! The past couple of months have flown by for me. Let me catch you up. Since I last left you I have been running very little and gaining very much weight. And that is very, very scary!

I am currently 20 pounds heavier than my lowest recorded weight! Yes, you read that right! Crap!

Unfortunately, I am one of those people who is effected a lot by the winter blues and unfortunately this year it started for me much earlier. I'm trying to get out of the funk, but for some reason I'm still stuck. I tell myself to just get on the treadmill or even go out for a walk, but I can't bring myself to do it. And the more I don't run, the more pounds creep on, and the worse I feel. The worse I feel, the worse I eat, the more tired I am, the less I want to run. It's a viscious cycle, of course.

It's not just the weather, it's a few things at home too. I'm really happy that my husband is working, but I have not found the balance yet. It's been hard for me to not have him at home to take care of our child, it's hard for me to have my child attend the after school program. I also have to find time to go shopping and do laundry and anything else that needs doing. It's not that my husband isn't helping out now, he is, but more things are falling on me to take care of too. This transition has just been a lot harder than I was expecting. There's also a little bit of the worry that it will all fall apart too, that he'll get laid off or lose his job for whatever reason and then we'll be back to the worry and turmoil of not having enough money to live. I know, I know, I'm not supposed to think like that, life is meant to be lived, not worried about (PFG Jen said that the other day and I loved it), but as a chronic worrier, it's a hard thing. It just is. Our schedule is also different too. He has to be to work from 8 to 5 whereas I have more flexibility. Getting our child to and from school falls on me now and than changes my schedule quite a bit. My husband is also more tired now and wants to go to bed way early, or is falling asleep on the couch. I'm just not used to this. I'm sure as time goes by I'll adapt, but for now, it's hard.

I'm also worried about my cat and the fact that he is now worth over $2,000, but refuses to eat. It was a combination of vet bills ending with a surgery over the weekend to remove a Nerf dart tip from his small intestine (yes, you can laugh). Basically he nearly died, and while right now I'm thinking maybe I should have let him go, I know that I have to try my hardest to get him to eat so that doesn't happen. I chose to spend the money to save him and now I have to see that he remembers how to eat in order to stay alive. But it's making me stressed. You can bet I am thankful he's alive, and you can be assured I'm also glad it's just my cat and not my son who is sick, but I still worry. Worry about having spent all this money, worry about having had to skimp on other things (like birthday presents for my husband) in order to keep him alive. Was it the right thing? I guess I don't even need to ask why since what's done is done. But as I was force feeding him pureed chicken earlier this even, I was really questioning myself. And I'm praying very hard for him.

Do I have the answer? No! If you'd have told me six months ago this is where I'd be today, I'd have said you were crazy and laughed. But, here I be.

I did get on the treadmill yesterday (2 miles) and I did have a very good day of eating so I call that a win. I tracked all my points too. Today was my husband's birthday and we went out to dinner where I endulged in the macaroni and cheese at Red Robin. It was tasty! But that, combined with the pita chips I ate before we left, really dug into my weekly points allowance. Not a great day for the 2nd day on plan.

I'm not trying to have resolutions because they don't work, I'm just trying to get back on track. Long about Thanksgiving I basically decided to focus on geting my mind healthy to get through the holidays. After the new year, I would try to focus more on my physical health as well as the mental aspect. Of course it's all related. The worse I feel physically, the worse I feel mentally, and I don't work out and I eat poorly. And then I feel worse. And the self loathing begins and that never leads to good things...and wait, didn't I already go over this above?

Well, anyway, I don't have the answers and I don't think I'm in a good place to make life changes at this time, but you know what? When will I be? The more time that's passed, the worse I feel, so why not today? Each day is a new day. I had a great day yesterday and a not so great day today, but who says I can't have an even better day tomorrow? Walk the walk and maybe soon I'll talk the talk? I don't know, let's leave the cliches to the experts.

I have no resolutions, but I do have goals. My goal for 2012 is to make it to my goal weight, run at least one "race" each month from March to October, and complete another half marathon with a PR. Considering my 2 mile run yesterday was quite difficult, I know that I have to kick it up a notch in order to be ready to run 5 miles in mid-March.

So I have a three month plan right now which culminates with a 5 mile event right around St. Paddy's day, and then a hope that I've lost a good bit of weight, at least back to where I was before, by the end of March. I'm taking it a week at a time. My goal for this week is to track all my points and run three times, on Monday (2 miles), Wednesday (2 miles), and Friday (2.5 miles). That is all. That should be no thang!

My 2012 race schedule looks like this:

March: St. Paddy's Five 3/11/12 (5 miles)
April: Spring Dash 4/22/12 (5 miles)
May: Bloomsday 5/6/12 (12K)
May: CDA 5K 5/27/12
June: ??? (might not complete one because of two in May and July, though)
July: See Jane Run Half Marathon 7/15/12
July: Spokane Indians 8K Pennant Run 7/?/12
August: Dwight Dash 10K 8/25/12
September: Iron Girl 10K Seattle 9/9/12
October: Spokane 10K 10/?/12

What I'd really like to find is a race buddy. We don't have to train together, although that would be nice, but we could just go to the race together, line up together, and meet up after. Otherwise, I'm looking at doing most of these events all by myself. And while that's okay, it's not ideal. But so far, it's looking like I'll be a solo racer.

And now my cat just peed in the tub. Great, something else to worry about, that he'll forget how to use a litter box!

Here's hoping for a better tomorrow.

Do you suffer from SAD? How do you get out of a slump?

Break Time!

2011-11-13T12:58:00.000-08:00

I've decided to take a break from this blog, at least until the beginning of the year. No particular reason except that I have nothing new to report these days. It's felt more and more like a chore to post and just not as enjoyable. I will be back in January, though, either with more regular posting or a complete closure of the blog, I haven't decided yet. My upcoming giveaways are being suspended too.

Thanks for following my journey. I hope you have a wonderful holiday season!!

Challenge Over; Still Need to Lose Weight

2011-11-10T13:49:00.000-08:00

Hi all, I didn't get a chance to check in at the end of my challenge because I was too busy eating my way through the celebration of my husband getting a job. Two years and two months he's been off work. 26 months! It feels so strange to breath easier and not worry about every cent, not to worry about Christmas so much, or my son's activities. Thanks to those who stopped by with kind words.

You'd think with all these stressors removed from my life I'd be coping well, eating good, and exercising a lot! Well, that's not to be. It's like I feel so relaxed and peaceful that it's easiest just to eat whatever is around rather than planning ahead. I have accomplished two runs this week and hope for 1-2 more. But we also have a group of friends who we'll be dining with at PF Chang's tomorrow night so I know that will be a disaster. Even if I make excellent choices, the sodium will make me gain weight. I think you gain 5 pounds from sodium just from walking in the door of that place! Okay, maybe that's not fair. I haven't been there in a long time so I shouldn't assume anything.

Is tomorrow a holiday for you? Not for me, except that Fridays are my day "off". I use quotes because technically I don't work on Fridays, but I'm still monitoring email and getting things done depending on what time of the month it is. No, not Mother Nature's time, accounting time. Needless to say, tomorrow I will be working. My son will be home from school and it's my husband's official last day of being unemployed. Hopefully we'll squeeze something fun in there. I'm anxious to take my son to Puss in Boots. I love that kitty cat!

So what really is the point of this post? There probably isn't one as it seems like the point of this blog has gone AWOL. What I can tell you is that I will be hosting a couple of fun giveaways in the next few weeks and I'm excited about that. So even if I'm steadily gaining weight, I can still offer you some free stuff. And maybe somewhere in there I'll get the fire back.

Speaking of fire, anyone see and love the KINDLE FIRE? OMG, I want one of them! I have had and loved my Kindle for years. The Fire would never replace the e-ink reader, but oh the fun I could have with it. Hello elliptical miles with video. While I would really like an iPad, the Kindle Fire is far closer to my price range.

So talk to me. Kindle Fire? iPad? Puss in Boots?

18/21: Good News!!

2011-11-05T12:37:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: I'm sure it's one-sixty-something.

A wonderful thing has happened. MY HUSBAND GOT THE JOB!!! We've been celebrating for two days which means two very big dinners out! But it's all good because time's are changing. We are blessed! This could not have come at a better time! God is good and we are rejoicing!

16/21: Three Things Thursday

2011-11-03T09:25:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: ??? (was too lazy to weigh today)

1. My husband has another meeting about the job this morning at 11:00. Less than two hours from now. It cannot come soon enough. His first interview with this company was on October 4 so we're going on a month of limbo here. Please bring a happy conclusion. Is this the day the Lord hath made?

2. I ate 4 pieces of buttered toast with dinner last night! I didn't even realize until afterwards either which is a little scary. We had "brinner" which included scrambled eggs with ham, fried potatoes (the healthy way), and toast. It was really tasty, but I did not need that much toast!

3. After dinner I broke out the Just Dance for the Wii. That game is so fun even though I'm a total goofball and have absolutely no rhythm. Dancing is one thing I wish I knew how to do because it's something I love to watch. Ballroom, hip hop, country two-step, whichever. That would be an awesome fitness class to take!

15/21: No Pressure

2011-11-02T14:14:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: 162.2 (15.4 lbs to goal)

Just bouncing around here in the low 160s. I want to see the 150s (again) soon!

I have been struggling for awhile wondering how much is enough exercise. I've spent a lot of time planning and scheduling workouts, even going as far as putting them on the calendar. Some people say that keeps them accountable. Me? No, that makes me feel obligated, and then guilty if I don't follow through. What I've realized is that I'm putting too much pressure on myself and forcing myself into workouts that I don't like or enjoy. This has been a great motivation killer for me, and I'm not going to do it anymore. I do plan to continue working in 3-4 runs per week (at least 10 miles or so). Beyond that I'll do whatever other activities feel fun at the time. It cannot be about the number of trips to the gym or checking items off a schedule. Staying fit, healthy and active requires me to be HAPPY. It seems my happiness cannot be found in a formal workout plan.

What about you, do you schedule your workouts? Does it ever effect your motivation level?
I can see the benefits of a formal training schedule in preparation for an event, but I don't see myself being motivated by any other formal workout schedule.

14/21

2011-11-01T11:25:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: 161.00 (14.2 lbs to goal)

13/21: Don't quit

2011-10-31T07:11:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: 161.8 (15 lbs to goal)

I've lost 3.8 lbs during my little challenge. Unfortunately I have only exercised twice-last Monday and today. It's all good, though. My main focus of this challenge was to get my head back on straight and I think it's working.

My exercise goal for this week is to run 4 times. Three 5Ks and one 5K+. I also plan to do a little stretching, abdominals, maybe weights, maybe yoga, whatever I feel like as long as I get in the runs.

I've been reflecting a little bit on my habits last year at this time vs. this year. I was pretty strict about getting 4 runs done every week last year and sticking to my "diet" plan. Reviewing my running data from then kind of gave me a kick in the butt. I know it's doable! Last year, it was all still new and I was still going strong to reach my goal by the end of the year. This year, I'm burned out a bit, still pretty much at the same weight as I was then. While staying the same weight is great and I'm glad to have "maintained", my goal hasn't been to maintain yet. I have spent this year trying to actually lose weight! While I could be discouraged about my lack of progress in that area, I'm going to focus on the fact that I have not quit! I have continued to run, I even ran a half marathon! I've learned a whole lot about myself in the process too.

So with all that set, let's get this party started. 15 pounds to goal! I can AND WILL do it!

10/21: Rewards

2011-10-28T08:48:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: 160.6 (13.8 lbs from goal)

When I first started losing weight, I set up a reward schedule starting at -15 pounds. I look back now and have no idea why I didn't start with -5! That first 5 is hard! I definitely recommend rewarding yourself for losing weight, working out, or whatever other measurable goal you set for yourself. Here's the rewards I gave myself for the first 80 pounds lost.

-15 eyebrow wax & facial
-25 Amazon Kindle Cover
-30 sz 16 jeans from storage
-35 new underwear
-40 trip to spa
-45 2 new Victoria's Secret bras
-50 Keen flip flops
Halfway to goal - a trip to Seattle with shopping
-55 manicure
-60 new clothes
-65 new pajamas
-70 new exercise clothes
-75 outdoor coat
-80 Fossil watch

I am a little bit sad that I'm now trying to get back -80 pounds, but I know I'll get there. And whenever I wear my watch, which is practically everyday, I am reminded of the milestone I've achieved. That's the other great thing about rewards, they can be a visual reminder of your accomplishments. I prefer the material rewards, rather than service rewards, although I did enjoy the spa treatments. Whatever will motivate you, that should be your reward, of course. We all have our own priorities.

I'm pretty blessed and have had a hard time thinking of future rewards for the last two 5 pound increments. Here's what I have so far, subject to change, of course. ;-)

-85 New running gloves
-90 Uggs

Do you reward yourself? What are some of the rewards you've chosen?

9/21: The Morning Workout Challenge Week 4

2011-10-27T05:36:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: 161.4 (14.6 lbs to goal)

What a poser I am with these posts this week. Another morning, another non-workout. Sorry folks. The good news is I was able to SLEEP last night, so I woke up feeling much better!! Yay for that! So it's a mental health morning as I sit with my coffee and my journal.

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The Morning Workout Challenge
Weight Watchers Sept/Oct 2011

Week 5

Shine on!
You can see the finish line, but hte trick is sticking to you rnew goal for the long term.

Applaud your acomplishment. Look back at how much you've done and how successful you've been. Take pride in those achievements.

Reward yourself. You've earned some new exercise gear. Buy a cute outfit or high-tech headphones--anything that will keep you excited about your morning routine.

Stick with it. By the end of the month, you have eased your way into a solid, structured a.m. routine. From here on out, it's not about another "week" to get through--it's your way of life.
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Sticking with it can be hard, and it's easy to get into the attitude that if I don't get up one morning, I've become a big fat failure (the tag-line of the day). I am getting better at this. Look at me drink my coffee this morning! Anyway...

And I'm all about the rewards. Tomorrow I'll share the rewards I've given myself while losing weight so far and what's ahead as I reach my goal. And I WILL reach my goal.

8/21: The Morning Workout Challenge Week 3

2011-10-26T09:48:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: 161.6 (14.8 lbs to goal)
I'm back to 75 lbs lost!!! 75.2 to be exact!

I feel really good and I'm back on track and eating smart. I didn't get up this morning again due to a terrible night of sleep AGAIN. I cannot turn off my mind and it's freaking killing me! I hope to run after work (evening workout, blech!), but I'm so tired. It's terrible. I'm dead tired, but I cannot get to sleep at night. It's getting really old. When will it end?

And how ironic that I'm not working out in the morning given the subject matter of this week's posts.
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The Morning Workout Challenge
Weight Watchers Sept/Oct 2011

Week 3

Keep Movin'
This week tends to be one of the hardest because your initial excitement may be waning. These strategies will help you stick with your plan.

Take Wednesday off! It's time to add one more workout day, for a total of four days per week. Use Wednesday as your rest day; you'll only have to get through two mornings before you get a break.

Eliminate excuses. Write down all of the excuses you can think of to stay in bed. Then, next to each excuse write out how you will overcome it. (Excuse: I'm too tired. Buster: If I do this now, I"ll have the whole night off to relax.)

Aim for 20. When you want to sleep in, try this trick: Tell yourself you are going to get up and do only 20 minutes of exercise. More than likely, once you get started, you'll be inspired to keep moving.
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It's always amazing to me how the third week of an exercise plan usually is the hardest for me too. Push through. And while I don't formally write down my excuses and tackle them ahead of time, I often find myself making excuses in the morning about why I don't want to work out. The reminder of how I'll have my whole evening free (except that early bedtime!) is often what makes me get up. I HATE working out in the evening more than I hate going to bed early to work out in the morning. 2 showers in one day? No thanks. I also feel much stronger in the morning even with a work out before breakfast. Morning is where it's at for me and I need to stick with it.

Do you experience the week 3 (or other week) waning of your excitement when it comes to something new? I do, and I also find that day 3 is usually the hardest whenevener I've tried to change my eating habits also.

7/21: The Morning Workout Challenge Week 2

2011-10-25T10:31:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: 162.4 (15.6 lbs from goal)

Today didn't start with any workout. Last night I want to bed at 9:40. I read until 10:00. Unfortunately sleep was not near and would not arrive until after 1:00 in the morning! My mind is going crazy right now. My husband has been moved to the next step of the selection process for the job. One step closer but still waiting. Still going crazy. I'm trying not to think about it, yet trying not the think about it still kept me awake for hours last night. Needless to say, I barely got out of bed to get to work this morning. Maybe I'll work out after work, maybe not.
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The Morning Workout Challenge
Weight Watchers Sept/Oct 2011

Week 2
Rise Up
The novelty of waking up to work out might be wearing off. Your focus now is to resist the temptation to hide under the covers.

Feet on the ground. Resist the urge to hit the snooze button. Sit up in bed and put your feet on the floor before turning off your alarm.

Let the music motivate you. Download songs that make you want to dance. Listening to the them while you put on your exercise clothes will get you energized for your workout--and the day.

Keep your eyes on the prize. Hang up those skinny jeans or that cocktail dress you're trying to fit into, so that it's one of the first things you see in the morning.

Kick it up a notch. Try to add 15 minutes to each workout, to bring your session to 45 minutes.
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What I have found helpful with getting up is to put the alarm (which happens to be on my phone) on top of my dresser which forces me to actually get out of bed to turn it off. Then I force myself to not get back in bed although I might sit back down and read email on my phone or see if it's my move on any of my Words with Friends games. I like to wake up for a couple minutes before getting up.

I'm sure it would be awesome to turn off the alarm and then turn on the tunes while getting dressed, but my husband would probably not appreciate that. Plus, I try my hardest not to wake up my son who is an early riser by nature anyway. So I pretty much tip toe around until I get to the basement treadmill or out the door to the gym.

How about you? Do you get to fly out of bed and tear through the house on your way to workout, or do you tip toe around in silence?

6/21: The Morning Workout Challenge Week 1

2011-10-24T10:50:00.000-07:00

Today's weight 163.8 (-1.8, 17 lbs from goal)

I started the morning with a 35 minute run and then some abdominal exercises, squats, lunges and these other things called Running Rows (from Fitness Magazine, April 2011), all with some arm work with 5lb dumbbells. Are you like me in that you constantly tear great fitness routines out of magazines and then never do them? Well, I decided I was going to put one to use this morning. It had 5 exercises, and I did one of them. Still a success? :-)

So I'm reproducing and article from the September/October 2011 issue of Weight Watchers magazine without permission. I hope I don't get sued. This article is broken into 4 different weeks so I'll just post a week's worth of info for the next four days. I can really relate to these tips while I try and convert to morning workouts. Enjoy!

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The Morning Workout Challenge

Week1
Plan Ahead
That's your key to success this week. You just might find the first week of this mission to be a breeze. Chalk it up to the excitement of starting something new and just go with it!

Pick a program. Will you be exercising at a home? Taking classes at the gym? Walking around your neighborhood? Whatever workout you choose, make sure it's something you find interesting and enjoyable. Ease into this new routine by getting up early three times this week to do a 30-minute workout.

Go public. Tell your goals to a friend or relative, and you'll be more likely to stick with them. By nature, we don't want to disappoint others--or ourselves.

Hit the sack. Prepare for this major change in your schedule by getting a good night's sleep. Go to bed 30 minutes earlier than usual; waking up will be easier if you're getting enough sleep. Nix the caffeine after 3 p.m. the day before a morning workout (to sleep more soundly) and aim for a solid eight hours per night.
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Without a doubt, the hardest part about getting up early to workout is going to bed early enough and then falling asleep. I HATE going to bed early so I have to force myself to do it. Once in bed, I lay there for a long time when I wish I could just fall right to sleep. I'm hoping with time it will get easier.

Do you workout in the morning? How many hours of sleep do you get?

4/21

2011-10-22T20:00:00.000-07:00

Today's Weight: 162.6 (-3, 15.8 lbs to goal)

I read something interesting in Runner's World that I wanted to share. It's from the latest issue, page 91, in the article entitled, "The NEW Research".

Question: Eat breakfast before your run?
Fresh Take: Sure, being properly fueled helps you run better. And trying to run when your carbohydrate stores are depleted is hard--but not a bad idea if you're looking to shed pounds. Preliminary studies have found running on empty forces your body to burn more fat. But it does take a toll, so do it just a few times a week.

I love this! I have been trying to switch my workouts to mornings, at least on Monday-Thursday. I workout before breakfast on these days. I feel pretty okay when I do, but I often wonder if I should try and eat something beforehand. Well, I like this Fresh Take and will go with it.

On Fridays when I have more time and try and run longer, I usually eat breakfast first. I'll definitely keep doing what I've been doing.

3/21

2011-10-21T10:09:00.000-07:00

Today's weight: 162.8 (-2.8, 16 lbs from my goal)

I had another great day yesterday and feel even better today! Yay! It's a good feeling.

I don't foresee a run in my future today either, but I'm okay with that. Instead, I'm doing some meal planning and food preparation for the coming days.

As an update on my challenge, I've already ditched the paper journal. It's like I would have to look things up on my phone app anyway, and I decided it doesn't make sense to not just track it at the same time. But instead of just mindlessly tracking and then reviewing the Points total three days later, I'm actually conscious of what I'm doing.

Also, The Vampire Diaries will not be my new show, however, I did check out Melissa & Joey (thanks for the recommendation, Jill) and it's funny and entertaining. Hello elliptical workouts!

So, I'm looking forward to a great weekend. Fridays are my days off and the weekend, too, of course, and it's sometimes more difficult to stay on plan during less structured days. But I'm up to the challenge. We've got soccer, a trip to the pumpkin patch, and some other fun things ahead.

Happy Friday!

2/21

2011-10-20T09:40:00.000-07:00

Today's weight 165.2 (-.4)

I consider yesterday a success despite the fact that I didn't workout. I ate well and feel a lot better today! Last night I went to bed with a headache which made sleeping difficult, but I know it was my body's way of letting me know it wasn't yet on board with the new eating plan. Well, Body, that's too bad! Luckily I woke up headache free!! I woke up at 5:27, all on my own without an alarm, but you better believe I didn't get up and exercise. No, I got up to journal and drink coffee instead.

My head and heart are weighed down by my husband's job thing. We've been living in Limboland for over two years now, but when there is an actual job consideration, it's about 100 times worse. The waiting is a killer and I know I feel extra exhausted this week because of it. I'm having a hard time sleeping at night and feeling rested in the morning. I can't seem to turn off my mind. If he gets the job, there'll be lots of planning to do, and if he doesn't get it, we'll keep calm and carry on, right? I worry most about the latter because I know what a drain it will be for my dear husbad. Neither scenario warrants much thought at this point, however, because the outcome is unknown. No matter how much thinking I do, it won't change the outcome. So instead I just think about when they'll call, if they'll call, why they haven't called, when they're gonna call, what if they don't call, how cool it would be if they did call (with good news, of course), and so on and so forth. You get the picture. I've also been praying a lot. But I'm exhausted by that too. How many times can I ask for something I have no control over? I've told God that I know it's up to him, I've given it over to him. We want this to be the opportunity that knocks, but if it isn't we're supposed to assume it wasn't the right one. I've acknowledged all that. All I can do it hope for the grace and strength to deal with whatever happens. But I'm thought out, I'm prayed out, and I'm exhausted. This could be the longest week in the history of weeks!

Anyway, I plan for another good day today. I had my yummy English muffin with peanut butter this morning, and I packed a healthy lunch and snack options for the day. We've been buying Clif Kid Z Bars for my son and I tried one yesterday which was YUMMY, way better than the Nature Valley Trail Mix bar I had been planning to eat. They are each 3-4 points each and the ones we bought have 3 grams of fiber and 3 grams of protein in each. It's not a huge amount, but it's okay. I can't justify a snack bar that has more than 4 points so these are good. They're not cheap, but we bought them at Costco. And what's money anyway? Just green colored paper that floats in and out of our life like snow. (Points to whomever gets the movie reference.)

Well, I'm off for another day. It's nearly time for snack number one. Oh boy!

21 Day Challenge (1/21)

2011-10-19T13:03:00.000-07:00

I'm embarking on a new plan today. I know I've said it before, but this time I mean it! I have a new idea. It takes 21 days to form a habit, or so they say. So today is day 1 of my 21 day plan to get back on track. This will take me from today until November 8. It's not about trying to be perfect, or lose a certain amount of weight, or run a certain number of miles. It's more about getting my mind back to where it should be with regard to both eating and exercise.

Part of my plan is to use a paper WW tracker to record my foods, exercise and thoughts. I feel that it's important to take tracking seriously rather than using the WW iPhone app and not really paying attention to how many Points I'm using. I'm also going back to weighing myself each morning because I just like that (sorry Mr. McKenna, but you didn't help me.) For giggles, I'm going to use today's weight as my starting weight for the purposes of this challenge.

Today's weight: 165.6

And so we begin with a day on plan. I know me and after justone day doing well, I'll wake up tomorrow feeling so much better. Not just physically, but also mentally. You always have to start with the first day and that is today. Each day after that will just build and build. I can do this! I have never lost sight of my goal, and I've never thought I wouldn't get there there. Unfortunately, I just haven't been as focused on the goal as I was. But it's never too late.

I hope to blog more during this challenge, too. Blogging=accountability.

How about you? Have you been struggling? Do you want to start today, creating/changing your habit(s) for the next 21 days?

Doldrums

2011-10-18T22:56:00.001-07:00

I'm taking a week. Well, I don't yet know if it's a week but tomorrow is day three and I don't feel a workout suddenly coming out of me. I guess I don't feel it because my eating has been terrible which makes me feel just icky. Not strong, but sluggish and fat. I know it's crazy but I am taking a few days, maybe a week, to get my eating back on track any maybe lose some of the bad food blues. Starting today. I am going to learn this damn PointsPlus system or go crazy trying. I just hate trying to plan my day while not having a clue how many Points most things are worth. I guess it's time to go back to the basics and eat the simple choices and eat them often. English muffin with peanut butter, yogurt, fruit, frozen meal or leftovers, granola bar, some easy dinner, fruit, vegetable. (Note to self: chips aren't listed!) Getting back to control is what I am craving. I just need to remember that during those times when I think I'm craving chips.

And then she quit exercising!

2011-10-18T16:25:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's run and today's elliptical workout were not brought to you at all because neither of them took place. For some reason I was not feeling a run yesterday, and when I went to bed last night, I wasn't feeling a trip to the gym today either. I'm not getting too down about it, we all need rest days (Sat/Sun excluded, of course).

Today I weighed 165! And I've finally updated my little blog widget accordingly to face the music. That makes my loss right now at 71.8 pounds. Discouraged much?

Well, the good news is I might have a new show to watch while on the elliptical. The Vampire Diaries. Normally I'd be embarrassed to admit it, but if this keeps me coming back to the elliptical I'm all for watching mindless crap. I've watched 1.5 episodes and I think I could get into it, more than Greek anyway. Too bad my phone screen seems so tiny! Never before I have wanted and iPad, but all of a sudden with these cross training gym options, I'm seeing the need for one more and more! Why oh why do they have to cost so much?!

In other news my husband is still being considered for a job, and I couldn't be more focused on that and only that right now. It's hard to work, it's hard to exercise, it's hard to eat. Honestly, I just want a final answer on the subject so we can move on in the appropriate direction. I am not a patient person. I had been doing fairly well with not thinking about it, but now I'm consumed by it. Consumed, I tell you!

So time will tell whether I get in a workout tonight. I'm honestly not feeling it, but I'm feeling it for tomorrow morning. Why do something today that you can put off until tomorrow morning? Oh wait, that's not quite how that goes...

Best Week on the Exercise Front

2011-10-16T13:26:00.000-07:00

With the completion of Friday's run, I officially had my best workout week ever. I completed 5 cardio workouts, 4 ab workouts, and 2 strength workouts. I really feel great!

My eating for the week was fairly okay so the fact that the scale didn't move is a huge disappointment. It's like no matter what I do I am still stuck in the GD 160s! I'm getting so frustrated!

I know I just need to keep on keepin' on, but it's hard to stay motivated when I do not see results. And please don't comment and say, "Muscle weighs more than fat." That's the biggest excuse in the book. Clearly, I'm eating too many calories even though I'm burning a lot of them too.

I counted Points all week, too. I tried something different by not logging my exercise on the WW app so that alleviated the temptation of blowing through the activity points. I know I don't lose when I use all daily, weekly, and activity points, but it seems I don't lose anyway. I'm sorry if this seems like a big whine fest, but it's frustrating.

I have officially switched my goal from 100 pounds to 90. Mainly it's the skin. My stomach and arms both have loose skin that I know will not go away without surgery. (I'm not opposed to surgery, but I also don't have the money for it so getting it is unlikely.) With the added weight of the skin and just what I know about my body, getting into the 140s will be hard enough. I want a goal weight that I'll be able to maintain for the long haul and not just a weight to hit and then start floating back up. So 146.8 is my official goal weight right now, but I'll take 159 for the moment. It's 6 pounds away.

Anyway, that's me. I wanted to document my workouts on the blog last week for accountability and motivation. Hopefully, I'll maintain my stamina with regards to that. And hopefully if I just keep doing what I am doing, my weight will go down.

The Great Outdoors

2011-10-16T13:14:00.000-07:00

Friday's run was brought to you by The Great Outdoors. No, not that kinda funny movie from several years ago, but by beautiful nature itself! It was pretty cold out there, but I achieved my goal of running 50 minutes and it felt great!

The run: 50 minutes, 4.66 miles, 10:50 pace

Greek

2011-10-13T08:01:00.000-07:00

Today's elliptical workout was brought to you by Greek.

I'm not so sure about this show. I've watched about 5 episodes, and I'm just not in love. Do I give it more time, or dump it? Not sure yet.

30 minutes on elliptical, 2.74 miles or so

Titanic

2011-10-12T21:21:00.000-07:00

Tonight's run was brought to you by Titanic.

This movie is one of my all time favorites and is definitely in my top 3 of all time! And so began my love affair with Leonardo DiCaprio. Love him!

The run: 35 minutes, 3.45 miles, 10:09 pace

Wildfire

2011-10-12T13:04:00.000-07:00

Yesterday's elliptical workout was brought to you by Wildfire.

I started watching this show on Netflix last week, and I finished up all 51 episodes as of yesterday. I honestly didn't think I'd like it and was just looking for a new show to watch while on the elliptical, but I was hooked from episode 1! The premise is fine, the acting is decent, the plot lines are far fetched, but the horses are beautiful!!! I always wanted to have a horse, ever since I watched the Black Stallion movies as a kid. I even set one of my fictional stories in a made up town, Shetan, Vermont. (If you don't get that reference, you don't love the Black Stallion.)

45 minutes elliptical, 10/10, 4.21 miles

Something Borrowed

2011-10-10T09:04:00.000-07:00

Today's run was brought to you by this movie:

This movie is based on a book of the same name written by Emily Giffin. The book is one of my favorite books of all time! The movie is just OK, but if you love the book and/or John Krasinski, I recommend it.

The run: 35 minutes, 3.44 miles, 10:12 pace

My Life in Bullets

2011-10-09T22:01:00.000-07:00

I stole this idea from another blogger because I don't have it in me to write a real post tonight.

I have gained more weight so clearly Paul McKenna isn't "making me thin". Tomorrow I will count points.
Today we saw the movie "Courageous" and I really loved it. So much to think about.
I ran outside on Friday for the first time in weeks. It was chilly but it was also fabulous. My run was only 4.15 miles, but it was so much better than the treadmill. I want to get back to my Friday outside runs, regardless of the weather.
I ran 4 times last week, used the weight machines at the gym once, and used the elliptical once. Apparently all that was still not enough to outweigh the calories I consumed.
My husband was called back for a 2nd interview which is scheduled for Thursday. There is so much on my mind about this I'm surprised I can think of anything else. I keep reminding myself that God has a plan.
It is 10:00 and my bedtime in order to get up at 5:00 a.m. to get to the gym. Prefer to be in bed by 9:30.
My husband is watching the movie "Hanna" right now. This movie looks awful; glad I'm going to bed.
Good night.

3, I mean, 2 things Thursday: The Slowing Down Edition

2011-09-29T13:26:00.000-07:00

1. My running pace has gotten slower. I attribute this to a couple things. First, I've gained a little weight. While it's not a ton of weight, it doesn't make me feel that great and running feels harder. Second, I haven't been running outside that much at all and for some reason I get scared of running too fast on the treadmill. 6.0 is super fast for me and I never run that fast on the mill unless it's the top of an interval. I used to run about 5.7 at home, but since I've switched to the gym treadmills, I am not running at that speed. I'm more comfortable around 5.3-5.4. In the long run (ha ha, that's a pun intended) it's not a huge deal, but when you're talking about pace, a 10:30 mile sounds way better to most than a 11:00 mile. As a runner, I strive to be faster not slower!

2. While I don't want to slow my running pace, I do want to slow my eating pace. This is harder than you think! I am usually doing two things at once, while eating. Breakfast is about reading and eating, or talking to my son and eating, and then I have to go to work. Lunch is about surfing the Internet or blogging and eating, and then I want to get back to work. Dinner is about visiting with the family and eating, and I want to get done and get the dishes done, and move on with the evening. The idea of taking slower bites, savoring each mouthful, listening to my stomach is just completely foreign. I am a distracted eater and it's hard to focus just on the eating. I'm a multitasker. I like to kill two birds with one stone, per se. But I also recognize that this behavior leads to overeating because if you're just kind of mindlessly eating, and you've eaten way more than you should before you are even aware of it. But it's so hard to take the time to eat, just eat, when you're used to being busy busy busy and always in a hurry hurry hurry.

Do you multitask when you eat?

If you build it, they will come.

2011-09-27T07:28:00.000-07:00

Believe it; be it. Ali Vincent

Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference. Winston Churchill

The only disability in life is a bad attitude. Scott Hamilton

Make your optimism come true. Author Unknown

A man is but the product of his thoughts. What he thinks, he becomes. Mahatma Gandhi

Change your thoughts and you change your world. Norman Vincent Peale

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Today I bring you a little more on the topic of Paul McKenna.

I'm a firm believer in the power of positive thinking which is probably strange for a pessimist like myself, but I can't argue with statistics. Maintaining a positive attitude and believing in yourself can have huge effects on all efforts from losing weight, running a marathon, even beating cancer. I think believing in anything can have it work for you or not. Look at the placebo effect.

So I think if I believe Paul McKenna's principles will work for me, the chances of it happening are much better than if I think it won't work. If I criticize the idea of hypnosis as a tool for weight loss, I'm pretty much saying I'll be wasting time by even listening to the CD.

That said, I'm not really sure how I feel either way except that I KNOW it can work. My friend has had so much success, and for that reason I have been wanting to post about this book/CD for months. I have had the title of yesterday's post in draft since May 9! Visiting with my friend a couple weeks ago convinced me I needed to post about it, but also convinced me to give the whole thing a try for myself. What have I got to lose, right? For my journey, I'm taking it a day at a time and seeing how things go. Right now I feel really positive in that I am not limited by calories and Points, and I feel really positive that I can eat whatever or whenever I want, as long as I'm hungry and stop when I'm full. I also know that just because I can have the cake, doesn't mean I want it. But tell me I can't have the cake, and man do I ever want it. It's a totally new attitude for sure.

Speaking of cake, yesterday I ate a piece of my coworker's birthday cake. It was fabulous. I have not shared an office birthday treat in years.

It was ... liberating!

Do you know Paul McKenna?

2011-09-26T12:46:00.000-07:00

Liberate: to set free, as from imprisonment or bondage.

Liberated is the word I am using to describe how I have felt this past week.

So, Paul McKenna? Well, he's this author of a book called I Can Make You Thin (among others). Of course a title like that would make me skeptical, but my friend has been following Mr. McKenna's basic principles for nearly a year and swears by his system. Included with the book is a "hypnosis" CD. That, coupled with the title of the book, would normally make it impossible for me to buy this book, but the recommendation from my friend means a lot.

The principles are simple:
1. If you are hungry, eat.
2. Eat what you want, not what you think you should.
3. Eat consciously and enjoy every mouthful.
4. If you think you are full, stop eating.

You're probably thinking (as I am) that these concepts are basic and not groundbreaking. To a naturally thin person, they're also probably fairly obvious. However, for someone like me, they feel like a gift.

It is not a natural concept for me to eat only when I'm hungry. I eat when I'm bored, lonely, happy, angry, or tired. I probably eat when I'm actually hungry the smallest percentage of the time. Having been a faithful follower of Weight Watchers for over half my life, I tend to eat when the clock says so, when the Points are available, or when I feel like I need more fruit or veggies for the day. And for the years before I lost this weight, I ate a lot just because I had a "last supper" mentality a lot of the time in that I was always planning to start tomorrow, or start on Monday, or start next week. Planning on going on a diet made me eat a whole lot, a whole lot of the time. Hunger? What does that even feel like?

This past week I have been getting in tune with myself. I have been eating when my stomach feels empty, not when the clock says it's a "mealtime". When I do eat, I eat what I want. I know that healthy, whole foods make me feel the best, so I usually make those choices automatically, but I even allowed myself a Snickers the other day and felt okay with it. I only wanted one small square and I ate it. And I felt no guilt or gluttony. Knowing that nothing is off limits to me has taken away the feeling of needing to eat and eat and eat because "I'll start again tomorrow". I think that by allowing myself the Snickers, I ate less than if I'd eaten something "healthier" because I had what I wanted and felt satisfied.

Another change has been my daily lunches. Usually I bring a main item (pasta, soup, sandwich, etc), Chobani, a piece of fruit, and a few nuts. That's my lunch and that's what I eat. Well, last week I didn't finish my lunch on several days. Paying attention to whether I was actually hungry made a big difference than just going off the fact that I had the food available in my lunch bag. I will admit that it is hard for me to stop eating something before it is finished. Like if I bring a bowl of soup, I am more apt to finish it than leave some in the bowl. I'm a full fledged member of the "clean your plate club". But if I eat the soup and then take notice of whether I'm satisfied or still hungry, it's been easier to stop eating before opening the yogurt or something else.

So is Paul McKenna going to make me thin? Is Mr. McKenna's simple plan the answer to all of my food issues? I do not know, but I do know what a huge difference the system has made in my friend's life. Whether it's the concepts, the hypnosis CD, mind over matter, or all of the above, she has lost quite a bit of weight without even trying. She's also addicted to activity. Running, hiking, yoga, Zumba, she does it all and craves it when she doesn't. Now, mind you, my friend is also very susceptible to hypnosis. She's been part of a hypnsosis show more than once and she's usually the star of the show! I do not feel hypnotized when I listen to the CD, but I have listened everyday for a week. A couple times I have drifted off only to be awakened when he says to wake up. Was I hypnotized or just tired? I don't really know.

Regardless, I have always said that I do not want to count calories forever, and I do not want to count Points forever. I want a healthy relationship with food. I want to eat dessert when it sounds good, and not feel like I've "cheated". This past week has been the most liberating of my life. As I said, I rejoined WW on the 16th and counted Points on Friday & Saturday. Sunday was when I read the book (it's short) and started listening to the CD, and that's the day I started practicing Mr. McKenna's principles and eating what I wanted without counting. My weight loss from Friday to Friday was 5.6 pounds. I know I had been "off plan" for a bit before that and expected a large loss for "week 1". But I am pleasantly surprised with 5.6 pounds given that I ate whatever I wanted for most of the week. I feel ready to continue doing what I'm doing and seeing where it leads.

If you're skeptical, I can understand that feeling very well. I feel like I have suffered from disordered eating patterns forever and 4 principles can't possibly solve those issues. Yet, getting rid of the all or nothing attitude, the feeling that I'm cheating on my diet, and the lack of having to meticulously plan out my Points for the day has been so liberating! Truly! It's amazing.

I know people are overweight or obese for a multitude of reasons. Some people need to delve into their pasts and make discoveries about themselves in order to combat their issues with food. I have never felt that way. To me, it does not matter why I was obese, it only matters that I do not become that way again. I don't want to waste time examining my past because I can't change it. Only the future is writable and to keep moving forward is to me the most important thing in the world.

I'm not telling anyone to run out and buy this book/CD, I'm just giving my preliminary thoughts on it after a week of use. I will continue to update as time goes by. I should add that one point Mr. McKenna makes is to not weigh yourself on a daily basis. This has been a bit hard for me because that's what I'm used to. But I've put my scale away to avoid the temptation, and will continue to weigh in weekly at W.W. I'm still attending the meetings because it's a good check in place, even if I'm not exactly following the plan. I did already pay for the two months after all.

Do you know Paul McKenna?

Does this post make you intrigued enough to check out his book?

What do you think about hypnosis for weight loss?

Hike to Snow Lake

2011-09-19T07:00:00.000-07:00

My friend Joanna is quite active! She's an avid hiker, something I wish I could interest my family in. We live in the Pacific Northwest where outdoor activities are plentiful, but we don't really take advantage of the opportunities available. Joanna, on the other hand, spends a lot of time taking advantage of all the Northwest has to offer. She hikes with friends usually at least once a week and I'm super jealous! Since I had a few extra days in Seattle planned after the 10K race on Sunday, I asked her to take me hiking at least once.

She decided to take me on her favorite hike to Snow Lake and it did not disappoint. What a beautiful day we had! This hike was about six and half miles round trip. According to my Garmin the elevation gain on the way up was about 1,970 feet and I have no idea if that is a lot in just over three miles or not. All I know is it took us just over three and half hours to make the trek up and back, not including our stop for lunch, and I felt so accomplished when we were done. I was actually sore for a few days after this hike, too, my calves and quads took a beating! An awesome beating.

The trailhead can be found directly across from the ski lodge on Snowqualmie Pass at the Alpental ski area. I found the following information about the snow lake hike on the Washington Trails website:

If there's such a thing as a wilderness superhighway, this is it. The Snow Lake Trail is Washington's most heavily used trail within a designated wilderness area. On any given summer weekend, you can expect to share the area with upward of two hundred hikers. Fortunately, midweek the route is virtually deserted, and after Labor Day the number of weekend hikers drops to more reasonable levels. Why is it so popular? It's a combination of easy-to-access wilderness trail and a route to one of the most picturesque lakes in the water-rich Alpine Lakes Wilderness. Snow Lake is surrounded by high granite peaks and is visited by deer, mountain goats, and a host of small critters and birds. What's more, the lakeshores are lined with wildflowers in early summer and juicy huckleberries later in the year. All in all, the crowds are justified--few places that are so easy to reach offer such a stunning wilderness experience.

Here are some of the gorgeous views from the day.

Athleta Iron Girl 10K - One Additional Thing

2011-09-17T22:41:00.000-07:00

I almost forgot to share one of my favorite parts of the Athleta Iron Girl 10K.

Personalized race bibs!!

Athleta Iron Girl 10K - Seattle

2011-09-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

In the midst of it all, I have completed another 10K race. On 9/11/11, I ran the Athleta Iron Girl 10K in Seattle. This race was slow and steady and very easy. The best part was running with my bestest friend in the world, Joanna.

The race was in Seattle so I had to make another trek across the state, alone. But it's all good, I had my tunes with me. (Are you surprised that my iPhone cover is not purple?)

The wind turbines along I-90 before and after Ellensburg always amaze me.

I arrived in Seattle on Saturday about 5:30 after stopping at the Factory Outlets in North Bend for a new Coach purse.

We promptly left for Alki Beach where we enjoyed some carbs on the sand and watched the sunset. It was gorgeous.

We got back to the house around 10:00 p.m. and planned to go straight to bed. I spent the next half hour texting with my husband and organizing my race gear. Just as I closed the door to head to bed, I noticed I was not alone.

Seriously, I am afraid of spiders, I've mentioned this before. Usually I tell myself I just don't like them, but I was reminded that I am actually afraid of them. I could not kill this thing and I was shaking with fear. Luckily it wasn't moving, it was just hanging out in the corner. I was texting my husband who was trying to coach me through killing it, but I could not do it. My friend's husband was out having dinner with some family and I kept wishing for him to get home. Finally, about 40 minutes after the original spotting of the beast, just as I was about to put on my shoes and socks (and headphones, I can't hear any crunching of bugs) to head into battle, the husband arrived. My hero! And would you believe he picked the thing up with his BARE HANDS and proceeded to talk to me for 20 minutes holding it in his hand?! I was freaking out! I cannot even imagine touching a spider, ewwww!! Anyway, I finally went to bed at midnight and my alarm was set for 5:30 a.m.

Long about 3:30 a.m. I woke up. Wide awake. And I could not go back to sleep for anything. Pre-race nerves again! I passed the time by reading blogs on my iPhone and listening to music. Finally it was time to actually get up, get dressed, eat the usual pre-race breakfast (English muffin, peanut butter, banana, and one cup of coffee) and then we were off.

The Athleta Iron Girl 10K was being held at Greenlake Park. Greenlake is a beautiful lake that is surrounded by a paved trail that is approximately 3 miles long. It's a popular place for the locals to get their run or walk on. I was a little concerned about how the crowd would be managed on the trail. I remembered the half marathon which was also on a paved trail that was way to narrow for all the runners, and the local people just out for their Sunday run or walk were kind of annoyed. For this event, I was happily surprised to see that we would be running mostly on the road surrounding the lake- not as narrow as the trail and not displacing the locals.

We quickly picked up our packets and then walked around the expo. Neither of us found anything we couldn't live without so we made our way back to the car to drop off our bags before the race started. Then the fun began: the line for the bathroom. It was clear we would not make it through the line. They had a lot of toilets, but there were also a lot of women and the line was so long! I had seen a Starbucks across the street so we decided to head over there. The line was incredibly long there too, but seemed more manageable. As we were standing there, we saw some people fiddling with the timing tags on their shoes. TIMING TAGS! We totally forgot to put them on. Joanna offered to run back to the car and get them and I stayed in the line. She returned fairly quickly and we affixed the tags. If looks could kill, we would be dead because the girl behind us in line was not happy that Joanna came back and took her place in line. Tough!

Finally we made our way through the line and then made our way back to the race start and lined up. We lined up between the 10:00-11:00 minute pace markers. My plan going into this race was to stay together and have fun. Of course I wanted to beat my last 10K time which was 1:09 and some seconds, but if I didn't, I was okay with that too. It wasn't the same course as my last 10K and for me, a true PR is a faster time on the same course.

The countdown to the start began and we were off. We took off slow and steady. The crowd was pretty tight in the beginning and I was seriously annoyed that people were walking! Why oh why can't people be courteous and line up where they should if they are a walker? Oh well, we made our way around those people and it was fairly smooth running from then on. Greenlake is so pretty and the course was very flat. When we completed our first loop, it was a little disheartening to think we had to run the same way again. I don't love repeat loops or out and backs, but I waved to the finish line and kept running.

Garmin and it was 1:08 or so. I felt great and was happy with that time. Once across the finish line we picked up our medals and grabbed some water bottles which were ice cold and wonderful!! We made our way through the breakfast line which turned out to be a yogurt, Fuze drink, and breakfast burrito which was kinda nasty. They also gave us some Muscle Milk and Ironman drink. I only drank water, though. Great Harvest Bread Co. was one of the sponsors and they had wonderful wheat rolls. I could have eaten about 20 of them!

We had lots of fun with this race. We tried to smile and wave at all the photographers and just enjoyed the run. The event was very well organized with plenty of swag and water. They even had a table set up where you could get a printout of your official results-usually I have to wait for the official results to appear online. My time was 1:07:24 and Joanna's was 1:07:25, but I could swear she crossed the finish line first (see next photo). The finisher's medal is simply awesome and such a nice treat at a 10K. Awards were also given to the first three finishers in each age group which was so nice. There were winners ranging in age from about 11 up to 82!

10K is officially my favorite distance. It's a challenge, but you don't have to spend hours and hours training. The race itself is fast and you walk away feeling like you've accomplished a great thing. I couldn't have been happier to complete this race with Joanna. My favorite event to date!

Where is this blog going?

2011-09-15T20:46:00.000-07:00

I think this blog may have run its course and I am having one of those "where do I go from here?" moments with it. I don't feel like I'm ready to go, exactly, but I definitely feel like I haven't had much to contribute to this awesome community lately.

I continue to gain weight. It was lose, gain, lose, gain, lose, but now I'm just on a gain, gain cycle. At least for the past couple of weeks anyway.

I should probably recap August. My goals were to lose 10 pounds and run 70 miles. I actually did pretty well. I lost 4 pounds and I ran 67.45 miles, and I honestly feel like that was a success.

But as of today, 9/15, I am 7 pounds heavier than I was on 8/31. I'm truly not obsessed with the number, but I have the weight history at my fingertips thanks to my handy iPhone. I don't sit and stare at the numbers all the time, or anything. But just know that these days I am thinking of the numbers constantly. CONSTANTLY. On my way to the fridge and back, especially.

Tomorrow I'm doing something I thought I would never do again in this life time. I'm going to a Weight Watchers meeting. A real, live meeting with the old bitties themselves. I actually bought the WW monthly pass as they are running a special where instead of the regular $39.95 monthly fee, you can pay $43.25 for two months. Two months is what I'm going to give it. I already pay $16.95 a month for the online membership so this isn't too much more, and it will give me the opportunity to connect with others in real life. I'm trying to have a positive attitude about that and hope for the best.

In related news, I rejoined the YMCA last week. That is a really good thing and I'm excited about it. I'm excited to try some different classes and use some of the different cardio machines besides the treadmill. I like the elliptical a lot so far. I'm happy to report that I've even been going before work!

I'm taking these steps to freshen things up and make some changes. I need to do something to get back the fire and motivation that I had before. I'm not sure what that will mean for my blog. I'm not ready to say good bye because I'm not done yet. But right now, I'm the last weight loss blogger you want to hear from.

Giving it up.

2011-09-04T13:19:00.000-07:00

I've lost focus.

My "disordered eating" patterns have resurfaced a bit.

The "I'll start over tomorrow, Monday, next week" thoughts have been rearing their ugly faces.

I don't like it, but can I control it?

The answer should be yes, but can I do it alone? Do I need Weight Watchers meetings? A gym membership? A swift kick in the ass?

Or should I just try prayer? I think I will.

I will give it to God.

My 37th birthday - August 28, 2011

Three Things Thursday

2011-08-25T10:03:00.000-07:00

1. I watched the movie Country Strong this week and I LOVED it. I'm currently obsessed with the soundtracks--yes, there are two, and I don't even love country music! I'm also not ashamed to admit that I now have a huge crush on Garrett Hedlund after seeing this movie. I actually think I might be a closet cowboy fan. Oh, who am I kidding, I'm not in the closet!

2. I did not meet my time goal for my run last night. If you'll recall my goal was 19 minutes for 2 miles, but instead I finished in 19:46. I am not defeated, though!! I will try again soon. Last night I was on the treadmil, next time I will head outside.

3. I am working on putting together a fun giveaway. A few things have to happen before I announce it, but it's coming together and should happen in the next couple of weeks.

Control

2011-08-24T09:19:00.000-07:00

Yesterday was a day in control and I went to bed feeling GREAT! I managed my food, even included a lunch out of the office, and then managed to stay satisfied into the evening without eating large amounts of CRAP. I woke up feeling thin! As in my stomach didn't feel so overloaded and bloated, and that is a wonderful feeling.

I ran 4.25 miles on the treadmill after work. I have a plan this week to run 5 days in a row, something I've never done. My mileage plan for the five days is 3.1, 4, 2, 3.1, and 5-6. The first two days have gone according to plan and even included a little extra! I like to go out with a number in mind and then exceed it by just a little to keep myself challenged.

Today I plan a quick 2 miles. Usual pace has been around 10:20-10:45/mile, but I'm hoping to run 2 miles in 19 minutes or less. Wish me luck!

If I was a Smurf, I'd be Fickle Smurf.

2011-08-23T10:18:00.000-07:00

Remember this post, about how I was saying good-bye to Weight Watchers? Yeah, that was just last Thursday. And today, Tuesday, I reactivated my account. Apparently I'm not ready to sever our relationship. I'm not sure why. I feel like it would be so much easier just to count calories, yet I feel like I want to succeed with WW. I started this journey with WW and it seems like I should finish it with WW.

As of today I am just over 10 pounds above the lowest weight I've seen on this journey. And that freaks me out! I mean, it scares the daylights out of me. How how how can I have gained 10 pounds when my workouts have been consistent? Answer: eating too much! Obviously, right?! Well, why can't I get it together and knock it off?! Honestly, I don't know what isn't clicking in the food department these days.

Each day I wake up with a new resolve. I think about how I will plan my meals and stick to plan. But inevitably something comes along and I'm derailed. Sometimes it's a lunch out with coworkers, not too big a deal, but usually it's something more detrimental, like a big dish of froyo (with toppings) after my Points are already gone for the day, or a bunch of chips, or possibly some popcorn followed up with a few (yes, a few) granola bars. These choices are costing me and I simply cannot do it anymore. If I regain the weight I've lost I will surely go crazy. I cannot go back to that place.

So as fickle is as fickle does, I'm thinking about recanting this decision too. I really think I want a gym membership again, and I really think I want to go to the gym for some group fitness classes; however, my husband still isn't working and we are facing the end of the unemployment very soon. If we reach that point, unfortunately we will have to file for bankruptcy. Remember this? Yeah, we've been paying the bills, but when the bills exceed the income what else can you do? Anyway, I'm not sure a gym membership can fit into the new single income budget. Although an investment into health can be a wonderful thing, right? And if I went regularly, the cost could be justified. But I would have to go in the morning, and how many times can I say I am not a morning person? But I do prefer working out in the mornings and there are some awesome classes available in the morning. So what do I do? Luckily I can join without a contract, but I still have to pay the "joiner fee" which is $50, a fee I already paid once only to cancel the membership 7 months later. $50 can buy a lot of froyo...oh wait, I'm supposed to be cutting that out.

Well, anyway, like sands through the hour glass, these are the decisions of my fickle life.

Treadmill Run Fun

2011-08-22T11:52:00.000-07:00

This morning I ran. Before work. Yes, I did it.

My alarm was set for 6:00, I woke up at 5:30. You better believe I stayed in bed awhile before getting up.

The conversation in bed went something like this:

Me: I don't want to get up.
Me: I don't feel like running.
Me: I don't want to go outside, I don't care how beautiful it is.
Me: Running is too hard first thing in the morning.
Me: I could run in the treadmill. The treadmill has movies.
Me: I will run on the treadmill.
Me: I'm now getting up to run on the treadmill.

And so I did it. And I actually really liked it. Sometimes the treadmill is where it's at.

3.5 miles, 10:38 pace

An Open Letter to Weight Watchers

2011-08-18T13:21:00.000-07:00

Dear Weight Watchers, or as I like to refer to you, "W.W.":

We've spent many years together, but as with many relationships sometimes it's okay to say good-bye and in our case, I think it's time for me to say it. We've had a good run, from Exchanges to Winning Points, to Flex Points. Unfortunately, your PointsPlus and me cannot seem to find a happy place together. I'm not saying there is anything wrong with the new you, it's just that the old me cannot embrace this new you. I don't want to relearn everything I already know. I know that my breakfast is worth 6 Points, but now you're telling me it's worth 7 PointsPlus with or without the banana. While I know bananas are healthy, I think eating one should cost me, or not eating on should benefit me. Yes, I know a banana is a better choice over a 100 calorie pack of air, but the basic formula for weight loss will always apply.

As it is, I know these things and don't need you to tell me. I don't need your complicated system in order to keep track of my foods. I also don't need your system to tell me if I'm hungry or not. Just because I might have available PointsPlus does not mean I need to use them, it does not mean I am still hungry. But sometimes I get caught up in your numbers and seeing them makes me "feel" hungry even if I'm not. Again the problem is not yours, it's mine.

I need to learn to live on my own as I do not plan to pay you $16.95 (or more) a month for the rest of my life. Yeah, if Iim a lifetime member at my goal weight, I know I can attend your meetings for free, but your meetings are boring and full of old bitties who are just using you for their seniors day out. I'm sorry there is nothing to be gained from them except what not to wear in old age.

So after all you've done for me, I'm saying good-bye. I have learned from you, I have much to thank you for. If not for our relationship which began when I was 14, I might have grown up not knowing the amount of calories in beer and wine. I might have become a total boozer. If I didn't know the benefits of exercise which activity exchanges and Points taught me, I might not have always carried the desire to be a runner. You're still helping people and I will still recommend to my friends, but our time together has come to an end. I don't know if it will be forever, but I really hope it is. My life will no longer be lived according to your daily and weekly PointsPlus. There will no longer be a "weight tracking day". I shall be free to weigh whenever I want and start over everyday if I want. I want the freedom. I bid you adieu and wish you well.

Take care.
Me

Twenty-Six Servings for One

2011-08-17T13:07:00.000-07:00

Anyone familiar with these things?

On my way to the lake on Monday I had to make an unscheduled stop at Costco--definitely not a place to go when you're hungry. Beings that it was right after work and lunch had been hours ago, I was hungry! So against my better judgement, and I mean I really thought about whether I should buy them or just walk away, I bought the chips. Then I proceeded to open the bag in the car, after all, I was hungry and had a 50 minute drive ahead.

Since Monday I have eaten lots of the chips. This morning when I picked up the bag to pack up I realized there was very little left. Out of curiosity I decided to check the number of servings in the bag, expecting it to be 12-15. Um, no. 28!!! And I kid you not there are probably only 2 servings left. That means, I have managed to consume 26 servings of pita chips since Monday!

Let me break this down for you. One serving of the chips is 4 PointsPlus. Twenty-Six servings is 92 PointsPlus when eaten together, 104 PointsPlus otherwise. That is seriously whack! And I have no one to blame but me.

Get it together!

2011-08-15T10:47:00.000-07:00

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 159.0
Current weight: 162.8
Gain/loss: +3.8
Total gain/loss: -74
Pounds to goal (136.8): 26
Pounds to mini goal (149): 13.8

You might notice the scale moved in the wrong direction again. I'm seriously and completely down about this. Yes, I did indulge some over the weekend, but to gain that much? And I'm not even going to mention the lower numbers I saw on the scale last week. During the week, I was actually rocking a loss for the week. I'm discouraged. It seems like my system is utterly sensitive to salt in which any amount of it causes every cell in my body to suck up all the water I've consumed (yet I still pee ALL THE DAMN TIME!) It's frustrating!

As for my workouts, I reached my 15+ miles as of last night. I crapped out and didn't run Saturday before leaving for the lake so I had to do it last night upon arriving home from the lake. I also went out there again this morning for just under 4 miles. We are heading to the lake again this weekend so I am hoping to get all my miles in by the end of Friday's run so I don't have to haul my running gear with me or plan a run for Sunday evening. With my schedule this week it means I'll have to run Mon-Wed-Thurs-Friday which I don't love (three days in a row). But I can do it if driven. Where the strength training will fit in is unknown at this time.

I had the nicest comment on my blog Saturday which really made me feel good about sharing my journey with all of you. But after such a craptastic week and another stupid gain, I feel guilty. I want to be the person that inspires others, the person who succeeds. After all, this is supposed to be a weight loss blog. I know it's only me who is putting the pressure on me, but I know what it's like to read blogs where the author starts gravitating from what was supposed to be the whole point of the blog. I don't want to be one of those bloggers who loses site of the finish line, who never quite does what they set out to do, and who starts floating along in limboland. And I certainly don't want to waste anyone's time by blogging about limboland, including my own. I need and want to keep moving forward for everyone, especially me!

Sorry, this isn't a pity party; I'm just stating what many are probably thinking: she needs to get it together.

Get it together!

August: First week in review

2011-08-08T12:39:00.000-07:00

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 162.6
Current weight: 159.0
Gain/loss: -3.6
Total gain/loss: -77.8
Pounds to goal (136.8): 22.2
Pounds to mini goal (149): 10

I do despise the scale sometimes. Yesterday the scale said 156.6 and today 159! I did eat salty pizza and breadsticks yesterday so I know that's what did it. Pffft! I didn't go over my weekly points, and I didn't use any of my activity points, so I had a successful week. My official weight loss for the week is 3.6 pounds which is GREAT.

My exercise for the week was really good. I logged 15.08 miles of running and 3 miles of walking. I also completed a little weight training, something I hope to do more of and write a separate post about.

Week one of my August is a success and I am really happy about it. I have made peace with evening workouts for now.

Spokane Indians 8K Pennant Race Recap

2011-08-06T21:59:00.000-07:00

This report is late because it took longer than a week for the official results to be posted.

Anyway, this race was on July 23rd, just 6 days after my half marathon. It was a race that I participated in last year so I knew the ropes, so to speak. I checked the start time online and planned to arrive at 7:30 which would give me time to get my packet, use the potty, and then line up for the 8:00 start. I was disappointed to find out it was the kids race which started at 8:00, and the 8K started at 8:30. So I did what anyone else would do, I moved my car from a pay lot to a free lot, and then sat around waiting, after I peed, of course.

It was an absolutely beautiful day and the sunshine was wonderful. It was fun to watch the kiddos take off on their run with Otto, the Indians Mascot, and Ronald McDonald. (This race benefits the Ronald McDonald House.) Waiting for the start really wasn't too bad.

When we lined up to start (quite a small group) I had the following thought: I just ran a half marathon so this 8K will be cake! Then I started running. And for some reason it really wasn't all that fun. I missed Brandy, my running partner from the half, and I felt a little lonely. Luckily this race route is on the Centennial Trail which follows the Spokane River so the scenery is quite beautiful. I tried to focus on that instead of my boredom.

All in all this race went well except that I didn't feel super strong like I was hoping I would. My legs actually felt really heavy, and I felt super slow. I actually felt like was struggling around mile 3. Yikes! Luckily I kept running. There was a fairly small turnout for this run and the paths weren't crowded which is really nice on an out and back course. The water stations were good and had plenty of water, and I also wore my hydration belt just in case.

My time goal was to beat last year's time of 55:54, but I really wanted to run a sub 50. I kept watching my Garmin time and all along I thought I would do it, until the last mile when I knew I better punch it or fall short.

So I punched it, at least I thought I did. In review of the mile splits later, there was really no punching at all. All the same, by the time I reached finish line I was ready to stop. And when I came upon the clock, I was disappointed to see 50:??. I totally didn't catch the seconds and when I saw my official time last Monday of 50:04, I was still disappointed. Yes, I beat my time from last year, but if I just could have shaved 1 measly second off each mile, I'd have made my goal of under 50 minutes. Oh well, there's always next year, right?

The downside of this race was that I was there all by myself. I showed up alone, I ran alone, and I went home alone. I didn't even take the obligatory self photo because I didn't even think about it. While I'm glad to have supported the Ronald McDonald House, it was a fairly lonely event. And I could have gone out to run my own 8K in the neighborhood for a lot less hassle. But I like having events on the schedule, so even though I had to go alone, it still feels good to have participated.

As a bonus, part of your fee includes a ticket to the Spokane Indians baseball game that same evening. My family and I went to that which was a lot of fun, and really cool to see all the people wearing their race shirts! I didn't wear mine, though, it's a hideous color of yellow! The Indians lost the game, but there was a spectacular fireworks show after the game, and I love me some fireworks.

One final point: the winner of this race had a finish time of 25 minutes and some seconds. He was honored at the game and received a prize. A baseball bat. I mean, that's it. I'm not sure I'd have been happy with just a bat.

Buh-Bye July, Welcome August!!

2011-08-02T22:15:00.000-07:00

I don't really want to rewind July because other than my half marathon (which was freaking awesome), the rest of the month in terms of my goals was not stellar. And the scale shows it:

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 161.0
Current weight: 162.6
Gain/loss: +1.6
Total gain/loss: -74.2
Pounds to goal (136.8): 25.8
Pounds to mini goal (149): 13.6

(In my defense, the scale showed 160 this morning so that's 2.6 down from yesterday! I'm sure it was the salt on Sunday again. Too much salt = my enemy.)

Briefly, in July I ran 54.43 miles and gained 3 pounds.

But August is here and I have some goals. First of all, August is my month!! My birthday is in August and, therefore, I love August! So it seems fitting that I set some big goals for August. Setting goals, achieving goals, that's what I'm doing here. Dur.

So I declare that in August, I want to lost 10 pounds from my August 1st weight. August first I weighed 162.6 and today I weigh 160 so that means I'm already 2.6 pounds to my 10 pound goal. I don't think a goal of 10 pounds for the month is too lofty at all!

My next goal for August is to run 70 miles. That is also not too lofty in that I ran over 70 miles in June. I actually have all my runs planned out for the month and I am really excited about it. I am going back to a Mon-Wed-Fri-Sat running schedule with long runs on Friday. I still have two 10K races on my schedule along with that little treadmill run on 11/11/11. I want to keep running long runs to stay strong. I might throw a tempo or interval run in there sometimes too.

So I think these goals are realistic, and I am excited about this month. So let's get this party started.

See Jane Run Race Series (Seattle) Review

2011-07-27T07:12:00.000-07:00

The See Jane Run series is one like no other. I had not heard of this series until I went to the Bloomsday expo and they were handing out fliers for the upcoming Seattle event. At the time I was still waffling over the idea of a half marathon, but I visited their website that same night and signed up for my first half marathon within 24 hours.

What drew me to this event was that it was organized by women for women. Chocolate and champagne at the finish? That sounded like so much fun. I thought it would be a great run for my first half. A smaller event was more inviting to me than one of the big ones like the Rock and Roll series, although the RnR sounds fun, too. But just read Jane's manifesto and tell me this doesn't sound like a great event series.

I really loved this event and am so glad that I chose this for my first half marathon. The organizers really know how to cater to women and have a great time. If you're considering the SJR series in the future, I would not hesitate to recommend it to you! The high points are worth mentioning for sure:

We received a gorgeous tech T-shirt by Born Fit.
We received an adorable champagne glass along with champagne at the finish.
We received chocolate!
The registration price was very reasonable.
The race location included free parking.
Bag checking was available.
Packet pickup was at the race location on the morning of the race, and the expo booths were there as well which was nice for us out-of-towners.
The pre-race and post-race activites were great and created such a fun atmosphere.
You could refill your water bottles at the water stations.
Brightroom was a great choice for the event photographer.

This was the first year of the Seattle event so there were a couple bumps in the road. Here's what I hope they do differently next year.

More bathrooms at the start line and at least 2 at each water station!
Have a race official managing the bathroom lines so the half marathoners can go first if their event starts first.
Do not run out of race shirts in any size! This might mean people have to take the size they actually ordered.
Do not run out of race medals! A rain check for a medal would be so disappointing on race day.
Larger medals--these things are tiny!
It would be nice to have the shirts, glasses, and medals include the date and location of the event.
The paths for the out and backs were too narrow for the number of runners in two directions.
DO NOT RUN OUT OF WATER AT THE FINISH LINE!!!

This year, SJR only had four event locations on their schedule, but I foresee the popularity of this series growing by leaps and bounds. More popularity can only mean more events, right? The next and final event on the schedule this year is in Austin, TX on October 9th. If you're in the area, you should definitely sign up for Jane! And if you sign up by August 9th, the cost is only $75!

Happy running!

Half marathon last weekend, fat pants today.

2011-07-25T14:31:00.000-07:00

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 157.0 (actually 2 weeks go)
Current weight: 161.0
Gain/loss: +4.0
Total gain/loss: -75.8
Pounds to goal (136.8): 24.2
Pounds to mini goal (149): 12.0

What's wrong with this picture? I just completed a half marathon 8 days ago. I ran an 8K race this past Saturday (recap to come as soon as I have my official finish time), and yet here I sit in my fat pants.

I have managed to re-enter the 160s over the course of the past couple of weeks and it sucks. Granted, I have not been eating that great. I have been watching it and I have not indulged in crap, but I have gone over my calories or points, whatever it is that I am counting on a particular day. I think I gave myself permission because I was "training". I wanted to train well, and be strong, so I needed to eat, right? Well, apparently I didn't need to eat that much!

So it has come to this day when all must change. I have conquered the half marathon and am no longer officially "in training". It is time to get back to business and refocus on my weight goals. My ultimate weight goal is still listed as 136.8, but my short term goal is 149. Today I weigh in at 161.

I am recommitting to Weight Watchers today. I have been ready to throw in the towel and break up with WW, however, after our long history together, I feel I must make one last ditch effort to become one with the PointsPlus plan. I must remember that "free fruit" doesn't mean I should consume 5 pounds of cherries in two days. It doesn't mean I can eat at least 2 bananas each day. It doesn't even mean that I should eat 2 nectarines for dinner. I know how to eat and "free fruit" doesn't mean it's a "fruit free for all". Do you hear that, Lori, it's not a fruit free for all! One of my very first Weight Watcher's leaders said to me so many years ago, it's not the fruit that brings people to Weight Watchers, it's the fruit pie. Well, I can say that fruit has been a serious problem for me in the basic calories in < calories out equation lately. I must cut back.

I also need to come to terms with my workout schedule and either make peace with the fact that I am not going to be a morning exerciser, or get over myself and just get the fudge out of bed in the morning! Seriously! Every week it's the same ol' thing. I mentally prepare for getting to bed early, getting up early, and getting my workout done first thing. Some days it happens and I feel great, most days it doesn't and I feel like crap. Even if I get the workout done in the evening, I'm so irritated with myself over the missed morning workout that it overshadows the evening workout. Isn't that stupid?! For some reason I have it in my head that I need to workout in the morning to be successful, and I want to workout in the morning so bad. But I hate getting out of bed! I am not a morning person, I'm a night person. Morning workouts cramp my style, yet I can't let go of the idea. Help me! Can anyone recommend some blogs of moms who workout at night? I want to see this plan in action because I can't seem to grasp its worthiness.

One other idea I had was this: run in the mornings, strength train at night. I do not love strength training. I do not even like it, yet I know it's necessary. I have been enjoying Jillian's No More Trouble Zones DVD, well as much as you can enjoy something you don't like, that is, but the thought of getting out of bed and bonding with Jillian before my coffee makes me turn off the alarm and pretend I never heard it. So maybe I should just starting running every morning. Running takes little thought. You get up, put on the gear, leave the house (or get on the treadmill). Not difficult. Then a couple nights a week, as time permits, I can have my sweat sesh with Jillian. How many of you run 5 days a week? Do you cross train?

Anyway, regardless of when I workout, the most important thing is to stop eating so much. So here we are on day 1 of the recommitment plan. So far things are going along well. (Except that I didn't workout this morning.)

What is your typical workout routine?

Lovely Quote

2011-07-25T07:48:00.000-07:00

Roni shared a quote* over the weekend that I loved and just had to share:

Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, wine** in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming, “WOO HOO what a ride!”

*I Googled this quote to see who said it, but I couldn't find it. Found lots of variations of the quote, however.

**My version would say coffee instead of wine.

See Jane Run Half Marathon Race Recap

2011-07-22T00:02:00.000-07:00

I left for Seattle on Saturday afternoon. I was staying the night with my mom who happens to rent a studio apartment in West Seattle which is just 20 minutes from Gas Works Park where the race would take place. When I got to town it was dinner time so we headed for dinner at The Spaghetti Factory on the waterfront. I ate my favorite pasta dish: spaghetti with browned butter and myzithra cheese, along with lots of bread and butter. Yum!! We took a short walk after dinner and by the time we got back to her apartment it was after 8:30. We visited for awhile but headed to bed early, around 10:30. My alarm was set for 5:30.

I fell asleep fairly quickly, but long about 2:30 a.m. I was wide awake. I could not fall back to sleep. It was a strange place, a strange bed, and my mom's breathing was strange (not strange for her, but strange for me since I usually sleep with my husband!) No matter what I tried, I could not sleep! Finally abot 4:45 I gave up, resigned to the fact that I would be running a half marathon on very little sleep!

I can't say that I was nervous when I got up, but I did feel a bit of trepidation. Would I be able to do it, would I finish in under three hours, how many times would I have to pee, and so on and so forth! Luckily I had my race outfit, my pre-race breakfast, and all the details of the day worked out. I felt at ease with all that would take place knowing that I had done everything I could to get prepared, even if that didn't include long runs!

We were supposed to check-in for the race at 6:30 and we arrived at the park at 6:25! Woohoo! There was no line for packet pickup although I was dismayed to hear they were out of size large shirts. I didn't order a large, but I was thinking of all those women that did and how frustrating that would be! I already knew the shirts were super cute and purple--it was meant to be, I tell ya!

We walked around the park a little bit. There was a great view of the Seattle skyline which I had to photograph, but before I did that I had to take a picture of the hideous garbage left behind by some hooligans the night before.

Seriously, can you believe that? I was amazed to see that after several runners came over to take pictures of the view, they started cleaning it all up. There are terrific people in the world. I'm not one of them, but I'm so glad to see they exist!

Anyway, the view was amazing even though it was completely overcast. The weather forecast called for rain, but it wasn't happening just yet. I had my sunglasses just in case.

Gas Works Park has these large steel structures that I guess used to do something with gas. I don't know. But I took some pictures. And then I used the restroom.

By now it was about 7:00 and we wandered over to check out the "expo". I didn't really need anything, but wants are so strong at these things. I found a purple See Jane Run sweatshirt that I just had to buy. It was $55 for a Champion sweatshirt! Say what?! Well, I had to have it, of course.

Long about 7:30, I decided to hit the restroom again. I'm sure it was nerves and my bladder, but I had to go again. This time the line was so long! And they did not have enough restrooms, not by a lot shot. They kept announcing to let the half marathon runners go first because the 5K started a half hour later, but it didn't seem to make a difference. At 7:40 when the Jane Fonda style warm-up started I was still in the bathroom line. At 7:50, I was still in the bathroom line. My mom and I started up a conversation with the girl behind us (here name was Brandy) who was very experienced in running these events and by 7:59 we were still in line. The race started promptly at 8:00 and we were still in line! I was asking her if she thought we should head out and hit the first porta-potty, or if we should continue to wait, it was chip timing after all. After much debate we headed out about 2 minutes after the start. We didn't use the restroom! So I was starting my first half marathon having to pee. Good times.

But we were off and running. I was running my first half marathon! Woohoo! And an amazing thing was happening. Brandy and I were chatting! Running and chatting! I never thought I could run and talk before, but here I was. And it was glorious! I felt awesome and the time was passing so quickly. The first three miles was an out and back which was a little annoying when the lead runners were coming back and the path was still thick with runners. You couldn't pass people or you'd get run over so you just had to shuffle along. But we hit 3 miles around 35 minutes which wasn't too bad.

It was right after the three mile mark that we finally stopped to pee. Oh, thank goodness! I had been so stressed because I hate running while having to pee!

At 4 miles, I ate two Gu Chomps (blueberry-pomegranite) and had some water. Brandy and I were still chatting and I was still feeling great! My right heel started hurting a little bit around mile 6 which worried me a bit. I hoped it would not continue to get worse and worse. Luckily it didn't.

I started this race with a solid plan. I broke it into three parts. Miles 1 through 8 were basically Bloomsday so I could run those no problem! Then I would run and/or walk as needed to mile 10. And then it was just a 5K to the end--I do 5Ks all the time. This plan and Brandy helped the first 8 miles fly by! I felt great! At one point we kind of got separated and I just turned up my iPod and kept going. I was really amazed at how good I felt! I had a couple Gu Chomps and water every two miles and the pace was easy and steady. When we got to a place where there was a fairly steep, but short hill, I actually loved it. I didn't realize that my legs did feel a little sore but the change to running up hill felt great and was a nice break

I did walk a little bit between mile 9 and 10. Brandy and I had gotten separated so I was a bit sad, and I had to pee again. Eww! So after the 10 mile mark I stopped into the first porto-potty available. Let me tell you how not fun it is to try and go to the bathroom in one of those things when your clothes are soaked with sweat. Everything was sticking to me and it was difficult to maneauver all my clothes and race belt while staying upright. Oh yeah, and that one was on a hill, did I mention that? I almost fell over while I was trying to pull my pants up! That would have been fun! I kept envisioning the whole thing going over with me.

It was about 10.5 miles when I started to feel a little fatigued. I kept telling myself it was just a 5K to finish, and I could run it. But I actually ended up walking a bit between mile 10 and the finish. I was okay with it, though, I wanted to keep going. The last 3 miles was another out and back so eventually I saw Brandy coming back and she cheered for me and gave me a mental boost! I will admit that at one point I was thinking about how I wouldn't be doing any more half marathons after that one! But I kept going. My biggest problem was the thirst. My water bottles were empty and I had to get to mile 12 or so before there was more water. I felt like I could drink a gallon. When I reached that last water station I couldn't force myself to eat any more Chomps and I sucked down a cup of water while they refilled my water bottle. That was only 6oz, though, and soon it was gone, but I still had a half mile to go. I just wanted water! It had started to sprinkle just a bit, but that wasn't the water I needed!

At 13 miles Icould hear the announcer at the finish line and shortly I could see the end. I picked up the pace and finished strong.

I kept scanning the crowd for my mom, but turns out she was standing on the other side of the finish line! Once I crossed it I started to head towards her and a race official started coming after me which startled me a bit! Turns out she just wanted to give me my medal! Oh, thank you! Now I need water. But then I kept walking and someone else was coming after me; this person wanted my race chip. Sheesh, let me get some water! I walked a bit further and a photographer was right there telling me he could take my finish line photo. Yes, please, but I still need water.

Finally, I could head towards the water. Water! All I wanted was water. But they had no water!!!!!!!! NO WATER! I was disappointed and trying not to panic. I knew my mom had water in the car, but that wasn't right there at the finish and I wanted water now. So what else can a person do but head towards the champagne. At least it's liquid right? On my way I met up with Brandy again and she hugged me and congratulated me. I felt awesome! Thirsty, but awesome.

And my mom headed to her car to get the water! It was still raining. It wasn't pouring, but it was a steady rainfall which chilled me a bit. I guzzled the water, sipped the champagne, and ate the chocolate. I also tried to choke down a bagel, but that wasn't happening. Brandy and I chatted a bit more, I thanked her for her help in passing the miles and then finally we decided to be on our way. It was around 11:00 by this time. My legs felt really good; I finally did a little stretching on the way to the car. When I had made my way to the water table only to find it empty, I also started hearing about how they had run out of 5K medals. After knowing they'd also run out of large shirts I was worried they would run out of champagne glasses and champagne. Instead of taking the time to stretch a bit, I was more intent on getting my glass and filling it with liquid than stretching my legs. So a good stretch at the car was definitely in order. I snapped a picture of myself with my phone to text to all my friends and we left the park.

My mom and I went back to her place where I showered and slept for 2 hours! At first I felt guilty about napping, but then I remembered I was up at 2:30 and had run 13.1 miles so I deserved a nap. And it felt great. I thought I would be sore when I got up, but only my knees felt a tad bit tight. Later that evening I drove about 50 minutes to see my friend and I though my legs would hurt after being stuck in the car, but they weren't. She and I even walked a few blocks to dinner, and I felt great!

I even felt great the next day and the next. No soreness! I am amazed. I was sore after Bloomsday for a couple days so I was fully expecting to be sore after this race, but I really wasn't. This has only added to the greatness of this whole experience. It makes me realize that I have been training well and running hard. I may not have run the long runs, but I ran a lot. And all of that hard work paid off! My chip time on this race was 2:44:01. I have posted my splits below and you'll notice the extra time on mile 4 and mile 10--these were the bathroom stops. At first I was dismayed to see that I basically spent 8 minutes going to the bathroom. I was thinking without those stops I could have finished in 2:36, just 6 minutes off my goal...or maybe not. I then started realizing that those bathroom breaks were also running breaks and maybe making those stops actually helped me. Maybe without a rest I would not have been able to finish as strong as I did. So I'm not lamenting the 8 minutes at all. In the end, time doesn't really matter. The fact is I completed a half marathon, and I felt great doing it. I set a goal and achieved it. That is a fabulous feeling! I could not be more proud of myself.

Now, am I still planning to chase down the 2:30 half marathon? Well, we shall see. More on this in the coming weeks. I also plan to share my thoughts about this race series as well as recommend some fabulous running gear.

Thank you for following my journey and supporting me!

I am a half marathoner!!

2011-07-20T23:50:00.000-07:00

I am a half marathoner!!

I promise to post a complete recap very soon! This experience has been one of the best of my life, and I feel amazing! I can't wait to share the whole story with you all! Until then, here is my official photo from the finish line.

See Jane Run Half Marathon - Seattle

July 17, 2011

Chip Time: 2:44:01

Weigh In - 07/12/2011

2011-07-12T10:12:00.000-07:00

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 159.4
Current weight: 157.0
Gain/loss: -2.4
Total gain/loss: -79.8
Pounds to goal (136.8): 20.6
Pounds to mini goal (149): 8

I had a fairly decent week this week. Aside from my latest frozen yogurt addiction, I stayed pretty much on plan except for a small chip fiasco on Sunday! I only ran on three days (Wednesday, Friday & Saturday), but I completed the No More Trouble Zones workout DVD twice (Tuesday & Friday). That makes two weeks (2x/week) of that work out and I have to say it is awesome! I can already tell a difference in my strength level and how my body feels. I didn't take measurements or anything, but I know my abs feel tighter! Gotta love that! I plan to keep doing it twice a week for awhile.

Finally summer!

2011-07-11T11:03:00.000-07:00

I'm coming off another great weekend filled with sun. My tan is in full swing! I love summer!

Wearing the white shirt again!

This week is my "taper week" as I head into my half marathon this weekend. Tapering would mean less mileage, but since I haven't run the long runs (over 6 miles), this week will feel fairly the same. And even though I haven't done those long runs, and even though I am still nervous about my half marathon, I am completely excited about it at the same time. No matter what my finish time is, I'll have a PR! Finishing=winning.

I leave for Seattle on Saturday and will be staying until Wednesday with my BFF or BFFL, however you want to look at it. We plan to shop, laugh, and have a great time together no matter what happens with my race on Sunday. I really wish she was doing the half with me! And I will say it again, I don't think I will tackle another half marathon unless I have a buddy. My mom will be dropping me off at the race and she'll be there at the end, but having someone along side me, earning the same medal as me would be so much more special. A half marathon still feels like a huge accomplishment to me and I'll love having achieved this goal, but I would love having someone there with me, too. Oh well, I have been a solo runner all these months so running the half solo will be fine. I am still hoping for the 2:30 finish, but without the proper training on the books, I'm leaving it up to God and my legs and lungs to determine my finish time. I'm okay with whatever time I get as long as I finish on my own two feet!

What is enough?

2011-07-06T13:19:00.000-07:00

It's a variation of this is a question that I keep asking myself.

How much should I run so that I'm running enough?
How many days should I exercise so I'm exercising enough?
How many pounds should I lose until I've lost enough?

I think the answers must come from within, of course, but how do I arrive at them? I don't know.

How do you decide what is enough?

Weigh In - 07/05/2011

2011-07-05T12:49:00.000-07:00

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 159.4
Current weight: 159.8
Gain/loss: +.4
Total gain/loss: -77.0
Pounds to goal: 23.0

I am okay with this small gain. I had a really good week last week. I ran, I made it through Jillian's No More Trouble Zones DVD one and a half times, and I ate pretty much what I wanted over the holiday weekend. I ate an Oreo ice cream dessert and lots of chips and that was fabulous and tasty!

My awesome holiday weekend included me in a swimsuit! I have not worn a suit comfortably for years! Years, I tell you! This year I indulged and bought a Miraclesuit. While I don't think it automatically makes me look 10 pounds slimmer, I do feel pretty darn good in the suit so it was worth every penny! I actually wore it all day yesterday without any cover-up! I guess it's an NSV of sorts! I also wore it in the lake when I went tubing with my son! Me, on the tube! It was truly fabulous and my son loved that I got out there with him. I am so glad I changed my life while he's still young!

Here's my Miraclesuit (available at Eddie Bauer or Amazon):

This is the style of the front of the top (mine isn't this print):

This is the back of the top in the print I purchased (paisley):

This is the style of the skirt:

What were your NSVs over the holiday weekend?

Some more ABCs of Me

2011-06-30T14:01:00.000-07:00

A) Apples: I pretty much eat at least one apple per day; add peanut butter it's dessert!

B) Books: I love reading books, it's one of my passions.

C) Cheese: I could eat block after block of cheese.

D) Dolphins: I love dolphins and have dolphin tattoos. I have a dream of swimming with dolphins, although now that the plight of dolphins in captivity is becoming more well known, I'm not sure I could do it. I'd have to research a lot first.

E) Eggs: I love eggs in all varieties of ways. Especially with cheese!

F) Flowers: my favorite is the daisy.

G) Greek yogurt: as in Chobani. I am a convert and this is the only yogurt I eat; I eat at least 1 per day, sometimes more.

H) Heath: my favorite kind of candy bar.

I) iPhone: I absolutely love my iPod!

J) J and J: my husband and son both have names that start with this letter!!

K) Kitties: I love kittes, I have three, I wish I had more. I would if they didn't poop and pee.

L) Lasik eye surgery: I had lasik in January 2006 and it was on of the best decisions of my life!

M) Music: I love music and it heals my soul. I like everything from classical to comtemporary, jazz to heavy metal--okay very little heavy metal. But I like all genres of music depending on my mood.

N) Nike: I am a Nike runner! Unfortunately I have ugly Adidas shoes, but I love Nike gear! Swoosh!
O) Octopus: something that freaks me out, I do not want to look at them, touch them, and for sure I am not going to eat one!

P) Purple: I love purple, that is a fact!

Q) Quotes: I love inspiring quotes and running quotes and parenting quotes. Quotes, quotes, quotes.

R) Running: I want to make this my passion; I want to run for life!

S) Scrapbooking: I really enjoy this craft, although I don't make as much time for it as I used to.
T) Traveling: I do not love traveling, but I like it once in awhile. I love going on cruises, and visiting Disney is my favorite.

U) Umbrella: always in my car when I need it elsewhere.

V) V is the first letter of my last name.

W) Writing: I have always loved writing and have journaled since 1990. I love using pen & paper, although typing is so much faster and backspace/delete are my friends.

X) Xavier Roberts: the person whose signature was on the Cabbage Patch Kids birth certificate when I was a kid. I always wondered who this was and I wanted to thank him for my beloved "kids" Mildred Almira and Jessy Lucille.

Y) Yo yo: sometimes I can do this.

Z) Zzzzz: I love sleeping!!

In other shoe news

2011-06-29T07:42:00.000-07:00

My perfect and ugly running shoes have been updated and are now available with purple. Check these out.

Introducing the Adidas Supernova Sequence 4

I love the laces on these, but the orange is kinda bright. Also love the purple on the heel!

I like the lighter gray of these, but they are kinda plain looking.

And these are my current ugly blue running shoes, the Supernova Sequence 3.

These are my current shoes.

I also have this pair which is kinda better except my feet sweat more in this pair for some reason.

The blue shoes still have a good 100 miles left and the pink have probably 300 so, therefore, it would be just plain crazy to buy new shoes right now. But they now have purple!!!

Must. Have. Purple. Shoes.

Entering week 8 of the ol' training schedule.

2011-06-28T13:42:00.000-07:00

Long runs are boring for me, they just are. And don't get me started on the pain of them. I'm pretty sure that ~~I will never~~ if I ever decide to do this half marathon business again, I'm finding a running group or at least a~~nother glutton for punishment~~ running partner.

This week's scheduled long run is 12 miles. I have been adding one mile per week to the long run over the past 7 weeks. I mean, my training schedule has been adding a mile. I, on the other hand, have been staying fairly steady at 5 to 6.5 or even zero miles on the long run. Say wha? Yes, you read that right.

I told you my training has been craptastic. Oh well, I shall still do the half and I know I will finish. I may not make my goal of 2:30, but I'll cross the finish line with a smile and know that I've accomplished something great! I cannot wait ~~to get it over with~~ until it's here!

Don't think, just do!

2011-06-27T11:50:00.000-07:00

I'm back. You didn't know I was gone, did you? Well, I've kind of been laying low and now I'm going to get back online. But what does that mean? Hmmm, I'm here with my stats, first.

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 157.4 (actually May 24, last check in)
Current weight: 159.4
Gain/loss: +2.0
Total gain/loss: -77.4
Pounds to goal: 22.6

You may notice that I've gotten even farther (further?) from my goal. Argh! I'm not too concerned only because I've been weighing anywhere from 156 to 159 for the past month. It's just that nothing is clicking with me right now.

As for my training, well I posted about that here, and it hasn't really gotten any better. I'm now wishing I could just get this event over and done with. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm ready for it to be done. July 17th can't get here fast enough, although I hate wishing that because it's like wishing the summer to go faster.

I'm ready to get back to my regularly scheduled running. My best friend visited over the weekend. She has also been running for about a year and she is doing awesome. She really got me to thinking about how much I just miss my fitness runs. An easy 5K a few times per week sounds excellent right now. I have always thought that I want to become a "5 mile runner", but now I think I'm a 5K runner. I like that distance. You have time to warm up, run, cool down, and then still do some good stretching afterwards, and still complete all of it in well under an hour. It feels easier to add in some other activities with that distance as well. For some reason I've had it in my head that if I'm not doing 15-20 miles a week, I'm not doing enough. I don't know where that idea came from, but that's what I've been stuck on. But what if I did some biking or swimming, some strength training, and some running? Maybe only 12 miles a week, or even less? That should be okay, shouldn't it? I'm trying to get to a place where that feels okay.

I really need to add in some other activities. I wouldn't say I'm getting bored with running, but I do need some additional exercises to start shaping this body. Running is not enough. I never thought it was, but I wasn't really ready to add anything else. Now I feel more ready. My friend is doing Zumba and yoga which she loves and I would like to add in something like that too. Whether it's a class or in my basement, I just need to do it! Do it! Do it! Don't think, just do! Right?

As for my weight, I still have my goal weight set at 136.8, but right now, my mini-goal is 149. Once I reach that number, I'm going to evaluate how I feel about where I am at. I have been down to 152 and now I'm back up to 159 and quite possibly the 130s are too low for me. I try not to get too fixated on a number (say 15-20 miles a week, for instance), but in my heart I know I am not happy being in the 150s so I'm not ready to change my goal yet. But I might settle for a 90 pound loss instead of 100. Of even an 86 pound loss. I just want to get out of the 150s, a place I have been since November! It's kind of freeing to think about actually, that I might find a weight that I am happy with that's not just about a number, but also about how I feel. I have never taken the time to think about that part of it, I've always been fixated on a number. I do believe my original goal weight was 145, but then I decided it would be fun to lose 100 pounds and changed it to 136.8. I gotta tell you, though, 145 sounds good right now.

Size is becoming a huge thing to me, as in clothes sizes. I wanted to wear a size 8, but I think I am okay with a size 10. What I'm not okay with is the muffin top midsection!! I bought some capris at American Eagle the other night, size 10. They fit, but they are very snug in the waist! I know some bloggers who outweigh me by 30+ pounds who are still smaller than me! But they are very active in all around fitness activities (running, cross training, strength training) when all I do is run. That is why I feel really ready to add in some other activities. I might firm up and lose inches even if I don't lose 100 pounds. 145 or 149 might feel terrific if I were several inches smaller. The only thing that can make that happen is me, and I need to take the steps and get it done.

I've learned that I can be a solitary runner (except for long runs and that's another post), but I think I need group fitness classes. Whenever I try and start something in my basement, I quickly lose interest because it gets mundane and boring, even after 2 sessions. Currently I don't know anyone I can work out with, but perhaps if I rejoin a gym, or find some community fitness activities, I can meet some people. I just cancelled my gym membership in February because I didn't think it was for me, but I've really been digging deep lately into just what my ultimate goals are and how I can achieve them. Is a gym the way to do it? I'm deciding.

I'm also still working on my workout schedule. Morning? Evening? Both? This morning was my first day back at work after a week of being on pseudo-vacation (i.e., not having to come to the office but keeping up with email and a couple projects). We were out to dinner with friends last night and I had a few things to take care of when I got home so I didn't get to bed until after 11:30. This means a morning run is doomed. This late night stuff happens way too often. That means after work I'll have to run. And of course I'll HAVE to because of this training thing, and having to really makes me cranky. I don't want to HAVE to! Oh, I can't wait until this half marathon is over.

So there you have it. Still here, still trying, still thinking more than doing.

Here's me today

2011-06-26T22:28:00.000-07:00

After spending the day at the pool, my husband and I had dinner plans with friends. We asked our son to snap a quick photo so here is what I look like today (with the sun in my eyes). Be back tomorrow with a weigh in and update.

Hitting a Wall

2011-06-18T20:39:00.000-07:00

I am 6 weeks into my half marathon training, my race is 1 month from yesterday! To say that the training isn't going as planned is probably an understatement. The truth of the matter is that neither the physical or mental part of the training is going well. I have not been able to complete the mileage on any long run, and this week I missed it altogether. This lack of success is really playing with with my mental state. I am doubting myself so much and all my runs lately, long and short, have been sub par. It's awful really. I keep trying to shake myself free of these feelings, but it's not working. And do you want to hear something dumb? I have a big owie inside my cheek which is totally making me feel terrible all over. My glands are swollen and I'm so achy. And that's the reason I missed my long run this week. Lame, I know.

I'm not sure if it's the fueling or hydrating before running. Or if it's overall nutrition. And believe me, I've spent a lot of time ~~stressing~~ thinking about it. It's craziness.

The other issue I'm having is that I'm not loving running out of what feels like necessity. I stress that I have this event coming up and I HAVE to train, sand then I get out there and run and it's not enjoyable. I was so looking forward to this training plan and to have it turning out like this is a real disappointment. I'm really trying for the attitude adjustment, but so far, it's for naught. I'm sitting here with the negative self talk going on all the time.

I feel like I've hit the wall with my training. And I'm hating this feeling.

So I pose these questions: do you eat before running in the morning? Does it depend on your planned mileage. Do you take water on every run, no matter the distance? Do you think it's better to train yourself to run with less water?

My Thoughts on Running a Half Marathon

2011-06-16T07:36:00.000-07:00

5K is my favorite distance.

5 miles is a challenge.

10K is very far.

12K is even farther.

13.1 miles...I'm skeered!

My Thoughts on Running Today

2011-06-15T13:53:00.001-07:00

It's hard.

I hate it.

Please don't make me do it.

I'd like to comment on your blog

2011-06-09T21:53:00.001-07:00

I am having issues commenting on Blogger blogs. I have tried for days and days on several different blogs and I keep getting the message that I need to login. I login, leave comment, post, then get the message to login. It's positively maddening! So I'm sorry I'm neglecting your blogs. It's not my fault!! And it's both my work and home computer. What gives?!

Anyway, just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you!!

Thanks for all the nice comments on my race photos. I really hope there is a photographer on site at my half! And that I remember to smile.

CDA 5K Race Photos

2011-06-05T10:37:00.000-07:00

Yes, I'm one of those people who spends lots of money to purchase my race photos. I love official race photos. Here are the ones from last Sunday's 5K.

Cheesy smile and wave! I love this one, I wish my head wasn't cut off.

Rounding the corner to the finish.

Right before the finish, I wish I would have smiled!!

And for comparison's sake, here's last year's finish photo.

Fun Friday

2011-06-03T13:39:00.000-07:00

Rather than bore you with the details of my ridiculously terrible run this morning, I give you the ABCDEFood survey instead. I stole this idea from Syl.

ABCDEFood!

A: is for Apple, what’s your favorite variety?
Pink Lady or Empire

B: is for Bread, regardless of nutrition, calories, or whole grains what is your favorite type to have a nice big piece of?
Sourdough

C: is for Cereal what is your favorite kind currently (just one!)
Granola, but I don't keep it in the house or I eat it all in one day.

D: is for Doughnuts, you might not currently be eating them but what kind do you fancy?
Maple bars!!!

E: is for Eggs, how would you like yours prepared?
White cooked, yolk runny, or scrambled.

F: is for Fat Free, what is your favorite fat free product?
Greek yogurt, Chobani 0% to be exact!

G: is for Groceries, where do you purchase yours at?
Costco and Fred Meyer (Kroger)

H: is for Hot Beverages, what is your favorite hot drink?
Coffee!!!

I: is for Ice Cream, pick a favorite flavor and add a fun topping.
No topping needed for Ben & Jerry's Toffee Heath Bar Crunch. If I had to pick a topping for it, it would be caramel!

J: is for Jams or Jellies, do you eat them, and if so what kind and flavor?
Not a huge fan, but I do like grape jelly on PB&J sandwiches.

K: is for Kashi, name your favorite Kashi product?
Autumn Wheat cereal

L: is for Lunch, what was yours today?
2 eggs with a sandwich thin and carrots

M: is for microwave, what is your favorite microwave meal/snack?
Definitely popcorn.

N: is for nutrients, do you like carbs, fats, or proteins best?
Carbs!

O: is for oil, what kind do you like to use?
Olive oil

P: is for protein, how do you get yours?
Usually from Dairy and some chicken or ground turkey. I'm not a huge meat eater. Oh, and eggs! And beans and whole grains.

Q: is for Quaker, how do you like your oats?
Well, I love granola, but I like oatmeal with canned pumpkin, a little milk, water, and lots of cinnamon.

R: is for roasting, what is your favorite thing to roast?
Probably turkey or potatoes.

S: is for sandwich, what’s your favorite kind?
If I'm being good, turkey. If I'm eating whatever I want, grilled cheese.

T: is for travel, how do you handle eating while traveling?
If I'm traveling it's vacation and I usually splurge a bit. Vacation only comes once in while.

U: is for unique, what is one of your weirdest food combos?
Pasta and cottage cheese.

V: is for vitamins, what kind do you take?
Multi-vitamin, B12 and Vitamin D

W: is for wasabi, yay or nay?
Not for me.

X: is for X-RAY. if we x-rayed your belly right now, what food would we see?
My lunch (see above)

Y: is for youth, what food reminds you of your childhood?
Top Ramen

Z: is for zucchini, how do you prepare it?
Sauteed

Coeur d'Alene 5K at Riverstone - Race Recap 5/29/11 (A PR!)

2011-06-01T12:58:00.000-07:00

All last week the forecast for the weekend was cold temps with rain. Somehow the outlook changed long about Friday and sun with milder temps was expected for our Sunday race day. It was a bit cool in the morning, but the sun was shining! Hallelujah!

Here I am with my parents before the race.

This was my very first event last year fresh off the Couch to 5K training plan when my mile pace was right around 12 minutes. My goal last year had been merely to run the entire way without stopping to walk. I reached that goal and finished in 36:27!! I went into the race this year with a plan to beat my time from last year. My unspoken goal was to finish in under 30 minutes.

I'm so proud to say that I DID IT!

Official race time: 29:34!!!

Yes, that is my fastest 5K to date!

I have to say that I felt awesome before, during and after this race. I love this course because it's paved and basically flat. It's held on the Centennial Trail which was made for biking, running, and walking activities, and is not subject to car exhaust, potholes, and the like. Since it's an out and back course, it is awesome to see the winners making their way back. Another plus is the amount of numb skulls who stop and walk without taking notice of who is behind them is minimal. All in all, I would say that this might be my favorite race, and definitely my favorite race distance.

My Garmin was very helpful on this one, and of all the running gear I think I can't live without, Forrest is number one on the list. I didn't want to make the mistake of starting too fast so I made sure to keep track of my pace in the beginning. I absolutely love having the distance, pace and time easily accessible on my wrist. I can see it becoming an obsession for some, but I use it as a tool not an obstacle.

Anyway, I keep watching the race site for race photos and they haven't been posted yet. I hope to update this post later with an official photo. The one below was taken by my husband. I notice my form does not look all that great. Oh well.

Heel strike, anyone?

After this, my second event of the season, I'm feeling pumped, although, for some reason I go through a case of the nerves in the days leading up the event. So much so that I start feeling as though I don't even want to do it at all. Luckily I push through the nerves and make it to the starting line. I thought this one would be different because I'd done it once already, but nope, I still nearly chickened out. The feeling goes away soon after the race gets underway, but it's definitely there at the beginning. I'm already worrying about my half next month. It's next month, people!!
What about you? Do you get nervous before events? How do you deal with it?

Runner's Survey

2011-05-25T07:56:00.000-07:00

I stole this survey idea from Jess over at Run with Jess. Check her out if you haven't already.

What is your favorite type of cross training?
Walking or recumbent bike. Sadly I do neither of each on a regular basis.

What is your favorite song to run to?
No favorite song right now, but I'm loving the new Adele album, and most anything from Lady Gaga keeps me going. I have tried running without music and I just prefer my tunes!

What brand of shoes do you wear?
Adidas Supernova Sequence 3

Do you wear a hat when you run?
I have worn a hat only twice, but I know I will wear it if it's raining.

What temperature is your favorite for running?
Probably around 58-60 degress and sunny.

Do you have any big races coming up?
This Sunday I have a 5K and my first half marathon is July 17th, followed by an 8K on July 23rd.

What is your favorite distance?
For regular everday running: 5 miles. For races: 10K.

Are you a morning, noon or evening runner?
I would prefer noon, but that's usually doesn't work out so my second choice is morning.

Do you run solo or with a buddy?
I have run with my best friend a handful of times because we don't live close, otherwise I run solo. I prefer it that way, unless my bf and I live close someday-then I'd love to run regularly with her.

What's your favorite post run snack?
English muffin with peanut butter and banana, or Chobani!

What's your FAVORITE race?
Bloomsday has been my favorite so far. It's such a tradition for our city and my family that I am proud to be a Bloomie!

Do you wear a Garmin? If not, how do you track your runs?
Yes, Garmin 405. I love love love it! I don't know how I ever lived without it. I used Nike+ for tracking for the first year, but now that I have a Garmin, I'm hooked.

What is your least favorite race?
I will say my 10K on 10/10/10. It was cold and dreary that day and they ran out of water!! I had to switch off my regular running shoes to another sub-par pair and my knee was having issues. To top all that off, the cotton t-shirt was seriously ugly! For my big race of the year, it was a disappointing, but my feeling of accomplishment far outweighed any of that.

What race is your favorite medal from?
Sadly, although I have done 6 races, I have no medals. In these parts, you really only get medals for a half marathon. I did find a 10K which I'll run in September which gives medals, so with luck on my side, I'll get two medals this year.

Who is your running idol?
I guess I'd say Kara Goucher, but to be honest I don't really know any famous runners or follow them. My biggest idols are actually the everyday people who go from couch to runner, especially if they shed pounds along the way.

How long have you been a runner?
I became a runner in 2010.

Do you run with your engagement/wedding ring on?
I do, but I need to stop that! It's safer to run without and safety matters! I need to ditch the ring and grab some pepper spray!

What's your favorite workout? repeats? long runs? tempo? fartleks?
Long runs. Nothing makes me feel more accomplished and proud of myself than a good, long run. Plus, I am not built for speed so I like taking it slow and easy.

So the real point of this survey is this: I'll be out running alone, about 2.5 miles from my house, in the early morning, hatless (unless it's raining), wearing Adidas and my diamond ring, not carrying pepper spray, and listening to music (i.e., I won't hear anyone approaching). If you plan to attack me, please bring my favorite post-run snack (above), and could you make sure to pause my Garmin? :-)

Impossible Is Nothing: Auria Earphones Review & Giveaway!!!

2011-05-24T22:45:00.000-07:00

Check it out:

Impossible Is Nothing: Auria Earphones Review & Giveaway!!!

It is What it Is

2011-05-24T10:55:00.000-07:00

I'm going to start posting my stats each week as follows:

Starting weight: 236.8
Last week's weight: 156.6
Current weight: 157.4
Gain/loss: +.8
Total gain/loss: -79.4
Pounds to goal: 20.6

I honestly think the scale should be lower, but it is what it is.

Hi there!

2011-05-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

First of all, thank you for the kind, kind comments regarding my picture on Thursday. They all made me feel wonderful! It makes me think I should update my blog header even more (thanks for the suggestion, Paula!). I am wearing another white shirt today, but I'll spare you the details because it's a boring polo shirt with my company's logo on the front. I call it "sporting my school spirit".

Anyway, I weighed in this morning and wouldn't you know it I weighed over 5 pounds more than I did yesterday! And yesterday was significantly lower than last Monday's weight. I'm assuming it was the popcorn (salt) I ate before bed, but instead of focusing on it too much, I'm going to let it go and not record my weight today. I absolutely cannot stand the effects that salt has on my weight loss (or gain, as the case actually is!)

I wanted to update you on my caffeine/fluid reduction project. It has now been two weeks since I started this plan and while the reduction part is going fine, the results of it are disappointing. I cut down to 2 cups of coffee the first three days and then cut down to one. I am still at one, but this down from 5-7 a day is a huge change. I also try and only drink 64 ounces of water each day unless I'm super thirsty, and I cut off the liquids around 7pm. So all that is good.

I'm not keeping a log or anything, but I'm sure that I am in the bathroom just as much, and I am now resigned to the fact that I'll probably log too much time in the porta-potties during my half marathon. Last Saturday I went for my scheduled 55 minute run and had to come home at the halfway mark to pee! And it's not like I have to go so bad that I'm dying, it's more that I know if I have to go the stress of running with anything in my bladder will lead to problems, especially if I run any downhills! It's truly and completely irritating!

I also don't know if I see a difference in how I feel without the caffeine. Yesterday I would have said no difference at all, however, this morning made me think I do wake up a little more alert. Last night I could not get to sleep. For one, I just wasn't comfortable, and for two, I had to pee too many times (drank too much water after dinner). When I finally did get to sleep I was awakened a few times in the night, again, to pee. Arrrgh! So when my alarm went off at 5:40 I hit snooze. Then again at 5:49. Then I turned it off at 5:58 resolved to sleep for another two hours. But as I laid there I realized that I wasn't all that tired despite my late night and interrupted sleep. So after about 5 more minutes I got up and headed out for my 35 minute run. I guess I thought I would be tired so when my alarm when off I told myself I was, but as I thought about it longer I realized I could get up. A fluke? I don't know. Of course reminding myself how I'd have to be running at 9pm if I didn't get up then might have motivated me a little too.

Anyway, I'm not quitting my project and will continue. One advantage to limiting caffeine is that I don't have to worry about a caffeine headache. One thing about morning runs and morning races is that I don't want to drink coffee beforehand to avoid as much liquid as possible, but then I usually end up with a headache if I go too long without. Not having to worry about such things is definitely a positive side effect of this project. Although I still miss my coffee. Coffee in the morning, coffee in the evening, coffee all day long.

One other quick note, I changed my training schedule just a bit to allow for a rest day this Saturday instead of a long run. I realized that since I'm running a 5K event on Sunday, I'd rather rest the day before so I switched around my running days this week. I want to run strong in the 5K race because this particular event was my first one last year so it's kind of a milestone of sorts. It's been a fun year since that first event and I can't wait to run it again!

Wearing White

2011-05-19T10:23:00.000-07:00

If you've ever been a heavy woman with heavy woman-sized breasts, you know what it feels like to have a built in drip tray. I'd like to say it was convenient, however, it was annoying and embarrassing. Not being able to properly lean over your plate when eating is horrible, and grease spots from an errant piece of food hitting your shirt is a serious problem.

When I was heavier I most certainly did not ever wear light colors and never ever white. A grease mark on a dark shirt would be bad, but a big colored food or drink stain on a white shirt would be terrible. Talk about embarrassing! No heavy woman wants to walk around with evidence of their lunch front and center on their shirt! If you've been there, you know what I'm talking about.

As I've lost weight, I'm slowly bringing color back in my life. Navy blue and black still have their place, but pink and yellow have also found a home in my closet. Colors make me happy! Awhile ago I even added some white shirts (horror!), but I have been too nervous to actually wear them. Well, today the sun is shining, I feel wonderful, and I'm finally wearing white! It's a fabulous day!

Cell phone pic - pardon the quality

Eleven on 11/11/11

2011-05-18T07:02:00.000-07:00

Real quick: today is my 15 year wedding anniversary! Happy anniversary, Honey!!!

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Last year I ran a 10K on 10/10/10.

This year I will run 11 miles on the TREADMILL on 11/11/11. I am very excited about this!!!

As of today my longest run on the mill has been 5 miles, but I am challenging myself to run 11 miles on that day.

What do you think, will you join me?

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Schedule of 2011 events:

05/01/11 - Bloomsday 12K (done)
05/29/11 - CDA 5K
07/17/11 - See Jane Run Half Marathon (less than 2 months!!)
07/23/11 - Spokane Indians 8K Pennant race
09/11/11 - Athleta Iron Girl 10K
10/09/11 - Spokane 10K
11/11/11 - 11 miles on the treadmill

I think this will be it for this year. Well, there will be a couple of events with my son, but not runs in which I'll be challenging myself to achieve a PR or anything.

On Track

2011-05-17T13:30:00.000-07:00

Yesterday I had a terrific day on plan. I also logged training Run #1 for Week #2. That was one awesome run too. It was only 35 minutes and I felt like I could keep going and going, but I'm sticking to my plan.

Yesterday I weighed 159.8, today I weigh 156.6. See what I said about the salt?

I'm still up in the air about joining WW meetings. Given our change in finances, I really feel like I should not put out any money that's not absolutely necessary. I'm still paying for my online membership and I'm working my hardest to get back on track and stay there until goal.

Thank you for the kind words regarding my husband's employment situation. It truly is the hardest thing we've ever faced. And there is no end in sight. Unemployment is high in our state, especially in our city. While he has applied for a few jobs in western Washington, it would have to be a pretty fabulous opportunity before I would consider relocating. It would also depend on whether I could transfer to our other office or not. Basically, I have absolutely no desire to relocate, especially for a job. I would be so worried about making a huge change and then falling victim to the economy again. I can't imagine it. It's hard enough facing this while we're surrounded by family and friends. Anyway, I don't know what we're going to do. It's time to negotiate with the credit card companies, that's for sure.

I have heard of two situations lately where people I knew "weren't looking" for jobs and a great opportunity just "feel in their lap"! (These people or opportunities are not in our town.) My husband has been looking for work for 20 months and clearly doesn't have the right contacts or experience because nothing is falling on him at all. I get wrapped up in the thoughts of "it's not fair". And it isn't, but neither is life, so I just need to suck it up! It could be worse, a lot worse. I do count the blessings we have and try not to fret, but fretting is in my nature. One day at a time, 609 days later.

Sunday Sobfest

2011-05-15T22:11:00.000-07:00

There's no doubt about it, I have just had the most craptastic week on record. I ate too much, I didn't track enough, and I feel awful, just terrible. I did get in all my runs, but I didn't do any yoga. I hate saying this because it was my first week of training, but it's true. I went completely off the diet grid.

Now, I will say that my eating last week as compared to how I used to eat was fairly tame, but that's really of no comfort here. I feel terrible right now, did I mention that?

I have had an unusual craving for salty things lately. Chips, popcorn, roasted nuts. Honestly I don't know what has gotten into me. And it's kind of scaring me because everyday I get up and feel like it's a new start and I'll do better, and then by evening I've done something really stupid like eat an entire 8-serving bag of pita chips. Then I go to bed full of self loathing and hatred of my behavior. I don't like it, not one little bit.

I have been asking myself what the problem is, what's the disconnect, why am I falling into these old patterns? Unfortunately I haven't really come up with anything.

It is disheartening to know also that even though I'm still running, eating extra calories makes me gain weight. I hope a lot of it is water. If I can just get things under control, I know some of the weight will melt away. This morning the scale read 159.8. Who knows what it will be tomorrow.

I am desperate enough to be considering joining Weight Watchers and attending meetings. I am thinking a little change and extra accountability might be a good thing. Or it might just be a waste of time and money. I have been doing this on my own for months. I want to succeed on my own. I just need to get it together.

My husband still has not found employment and this week is our last week of unemployment payments. There is some state money possibly, but nothing is for sure and the timeframe is not guaranteed. In other words, we are now officially a one income family and we have some difficult choices to make. This is stressing me out. I am perhaps eating my way through the stress.

That's the wrong waaaaaaay!!!

2011-05-11T14:30:00.000-07:00

So, I got on the scale on Monday and I didn't like what I saw. It was 159 point something. Horrified! Today I stepped on the scale and it was 157.4. That's still a 3.6 pound GAIN for the week, but better than 5+ pounds!

For some reason something isn't clicking with me lately. Last week was fine even though I wasn't tracking much, but this weekend I seemed to go crazy. On the whole, weekends seem to be my downfall right now.

I'm trying to get better with tracking starting today. I still want to reach my goal, I have not given up. My efforts might say otherwise, but I really haven't quit. I plan to see it through. Just trying to locate my willpower which seems to have flown the coop!

TMI - It's Here to Stay

2011-05-09T09:37:00.000-07:00

Good morning and happy Monday!

This morning I had my first official training run, gosh it was fun to mark it off the list, and now I start my plan to go caffeine free. What? Have I gone insane? No and I'll explain.

I have been consulting my favorite physician, Dr. Google, about my bladder issues (overactive bladder, stress incontinence). I'm concerned about running 13.1 miles and having to stop and use a porta-potty, or worse, not being able to make it to one. I'm going to make some changes during the next few weeks to see if it helps the situation. If I don't see any improvement, I'll be calling up a real doctor. If I do see improvement, well, I might still call up a real doctor. Time will tell.

Up first is the plan to go caffeine free. Now, this is very difficult for me because I LOVE coffee. But I love running (without peeing) more than coffee so with that in mind, I embrace this plan. Today I had two cups of regular coffee (my usual is at least 5) and then switched to decaf. Decaf is fine, but not as lovely, so I don't see myself drinking much of it. It's more to help with my habit of always having coffee on my desk. Tomorrow I'll have two cups regular, but then Wednesday I will go down to one. By Saturday or Sunday I plan to have zero. Coffee is really all the caffeine that I consume these days, although I also love me some Diet Coke, but I hardly ever have it. I can always buy some caff-free if I really want it.

Up second on the plan is to decrease the liquids I consume overall. I drink a TON of water. I have a water bottle that holds 26 ounces and I will easily fill it 5 times per day, more if I am up late. I think I probably do it more out of habit than actual thirst and that makes my bladder work overtime. Instead of mindlessly drinking all day long, I plan to try and tune into my body's signals and drink when I am thirsty. Of course I still plan to get in my 48-64oz, but anything beyond that will only be when I'm absolutely thirsty. Cutting back coffee will decrease the overall amount of fluids too. I also plan to stop drinking anything past 7:00 p.m. Hopefully this will help me sleep through the night without having to get up to pee! Last night I was up 3 times!

Up third is to start practicing kegel exercises (sorry TMI). Strengthening the pelvic floor muscles is important in my situation. Having a large baby, coupled with being obese for several years has not done this area any favors. So I will consciously make time for these exercises everyday, more than once a day.

I am sharing this on my blog because I know I'm not the only female runner who experiences these issues. It's not fun, it's rather embarrassing, but it's also a fact of my life. If I can help anyone else who might be in a similar situation, I'll go ahead with the TMI on my blog. Hopefully no one is offended.

Happy Mother's Day

2011-05-08T08:00:00.000-07:00

Have a wonderful day!!

Tomorrow is Day One

2011-05-07T23:27:00.000-07:00

Tomorrow starts my official training for my first ever half marathon which is on Sunday, July 17. (I start out with a rest day, awesome!) I looked at several training plans online and adapted a couple of them into my own plan to work with my schedule. This training schedule is 10 weeks long, and I will run on Mondays, Wednesdays, Thursdays and Saturdays. I will complete a yoga workout on Tuesdays and Fridays (or possibly some other DVD workout). I will have one rest day per week.

During my regular runs I run for distance, but during my training run I will run for time. This makes me a little nervous, but I think I can adapt. I'm both nervous and excited to start my training.

Feel free to view my training schedule here. You'll notice I don't have any set speed workouts on the schedule, but I do plan to add in tempo runs and interval workouts a bit. I just don't know when. I do have a time goal for this 1/2 marathon (2.5 hours), but mainly I just want to finish strong. I want to feel great during my training, great during the race, AND great during the days that follow the race. Right now, I don't feel a huge need for speed. 11 minute miles for 13.1 miles will be fine. Just fine.

Here we go!

Bloomsday 12K Race Report - Finally

2011-05-06T16:07:00.000-07:00

Bloomsday has been a big deal in our family for as long as I can remember. I'm 36, this was the 35th running of Bloomsday, and my dad just completed is 30th consecutive Bloomsday. My step mom, while only having been in my life for the past 20 Bloomsdays, also just completed her 30th consecutive. I myself just completed my 4th Bloomsday. But this was the first time I actually went out with a goal in mind. The last time I participated was in 2000 and my time was somewhere around 1:45. During that time I had been running a little bit in the morning, but I was nowhere capable of running the entire 7.46 miles. But still, I was proud of that time because the two prior finish times were both well over 2 hours each. One, in 1989, when I was 13 was 2:35 and the other in 1994 was about 2:15! Anyway, lets just say I have a history with this event and my family takes it seriously.

Last year, I had been running for just a couple months when Bloomsday came along and I didn't feel like setting my sites on that distance would be a positive thing for me to do. So I didn't sign up. I'm still glad for that decision, although the shirt last year was seriously cute. But even last year I knew that I would participate this year, so you could say the event has been on my calendar for over a year, looming up ahead.

As the event approached I did begin to feel a bit apprehensive. I didn't know if I could complete it in my goal time of 1:25 and I was completely freaked about "Doomsday Hill" which starts at around 4.25 miles and finishes just after 5 miles. All of my "long" training runs ended up being 5 miles or less (usually less) and I never hit my goal of running a 10K in the weeks leading up to the race.

What I was excited for was the Bloomsday trade show! On Friday, the 19th, I headed down to the trade show with my parents (my dad and step mom). There was no line for my age group/last initial so I was able to head right over to the trade show while they picked up numbers for every Tom, Dick and Harry they knew! I ended up buying some running clothes from the Nordstrom Rack booth (that I would later discover were too small) and a new Bondi Band to match. (Side note: the Bondi Band booth was a joke. One person working there, who was wearing a strange combination of Bondi Bands. All of the bands were just heaped into two piles, solid and color, and the prices were more than on the website. There was no one even looking at the booth when I went by. Had I not known about the, I would probably ignored too just because the presentation was so bad.) I also found the Fuel Belt handheld water bottle that I wanted for cheaper than it was online-score! I also found the iFitness booth and picked up a new running belt. Unfortunately, they have been sold out of the black with purple zipper on their website for weeks and also didn't bring any to the trade show. I was bummed about that, but I picked up the breast cancer awareness addition and it's pretty sweet (review and giveaway to come). All in all it was a successful day and really added to the momentum of the race. I was pumped after seeing all the gear and picking up a few pamphlets for upcoming events. I was really wishing the race was on Saturday, but instead I had a whole day to wait.

I know you're not supposed to wear a new outfit on race day, but I really had my heart set on wearing my new clothes. Unfortunately, given the fact that they were too small left me with little choice but to find something in my own closet. So I spent about two hours on Saturday modeling all my clothes and coming up with something. The weather was supposed to be sunny with a high of around 60 degrees, but I knew that standing at the start would be chilly at 8:30 in the morning. And I wasn't sure if I wanted to wear long sleeves during the whole run! I finally decided on wearing a short sleeve shirt with a long sleeve shirt over the top with capris. I also took a sweatshirt which I planned to leave at the starting line. Unfortunately, my husband slept through my departure so I have no prerace photos except for those that I took of myself. (Apparently I was too focused on the fact that my husband was in bed that I didn't even think to have my handy-capable son do the job. Oh well.)

Another piece of anxiety for me was parking. I wanted to park in my office building since it is right next to the starting line. However, since I didn't plan to arrive until after 8:00 a.m. I was afraid it would be full. (I found out later I could have easily parked there saving myself some time.) Instead I parked at one of the pay lots about a half a mile away. I set off from my car with my race belt and my sweatshirt, headed for my office building where there are real toilets and windows overlooking the start. I planned to wait up there until it was race time. That idea proved to be smart and dumb. Smart because of the bathrooms, smart because it gave me a place to leave my long sleeve shirt which ended up being too warm even for the walk down there, and smart because I could drink a quick half a cup of coffee. Dumb because I was up there for awhile and ended up getting to the back of my starting group. I didn't think this would be a big deal because of the chip timing, but I quickly realized the error in that theory.

When I finally lined up, it was rather lonely because I was all by myself. You might wonder why I wasn't with my parents and that is because they had a whole agenda for the morning which included picking up Tom, Dick, Harry and Sally, and attending a worship service in the park. There were no real bathrooms on their agenda and whole lot of dilly dallying--not my style! Anyway, it took about 45 minutes from the time I lined up until our group started moving, and about an hour until we actually started. I had my sweatshirt with me and that was warm enough and with all the people it was quite pleasant. I was ready to go, however! The longer I stand there, the bigger chance I have of needing to pee during the race and that was making me anxious.

Finally we were off and this is when I realized I wished I would have been further to the front. This race is well organized and though out with the color groups and staggered starts, but this race also has over 50,000 people, so there is bound to be gridlock no matter what. The further you are towards the front, based on your color group, the better your chances of being held up. You estimate your finish time and they assign your color group based on that, and also your past finish times. Although my estimate was 1:25, I still ended up in orange due to the lack of race history. Orange is one of the largest groups and is in the middle of all the color groups. And it was elbow to elbow for quite a while after the start. I didn't want to waste energy weaving around people so I just tried to keep steady until the crowd thinned out.

Mile 1: 11:43

I was feeling great when I saw the mile marker and was really glad to see the distance on my Garmin at 1:04. The crowd was still fairly congested so you had to pay attention to where your feet were landing and if someone was slowing down in front of you. I have to say I am one of those runners who gets very irritated when walkers don't keep right. Slower traffic, keep right! Anyway, I just paid attention and kept running.

Mile 2: 11:06

The pack is thinning out a bit, but now it's more common to be impeded by walkers. Still, I don't want to do the weave and sprint routine because I do not want to get tired out before I reach the big hill. I am still scared of the hill. I know that once I am to the top, I can give it all I've got, or at least not have to worry about it anymore. For now I am content to just keep an easy, energy saving pace. The course up until Doomsday is far from flat so I don't want to use up all my strength too early.

Mile 3: 11:25

Mile 4: 10:52

When I saw the mile 4 sign I knew we would be getting towards Doomsday fairly soon (I'm also familiar with this town so I know the course), but seeing the sign for mile 4 put things in perspective. I felt great, number one. I knew I was over half way to the finish and that gave me such peace coming up to the hill. And I start running up the hill feeling fairly strong and the crowd is really thinning out which I like, but again, the walkers are not on the right which I don't like! About halfway up, my legs feel strong, but my lungs feel tired and I am breathing too heavy. I decide to walk to the top. First I'm taking big, long strides and then I remember that's dumb and I start quicker, shorter strides. Much better. I walk to the top of the hill water station, drink about half a cup, and set off running again.

Mile 5: 10:45

Mile 6: 10:59

I notice per my Garmin I am still on track for pace/finish time and by now I feel like I have this race in the bag. There are less than 2 miles left, it's relatively flat to the finish and I am ready to put a little more energy into it. The weather is gorgeous and the temperature is perfect. The crowd is thinned out and if I pay attention I will not run down any walkers. The only draw back are those spectators who came out of their houses to cheer on the runners, with their cigarettes. Not a wonderful thing to smell while running.

Mile 7: 10:17

I am feeling awesome, a little tired, but not in pain or anything. I make sure and drink water at the final station so that I can keep pace to the finish. By now I have to pee and I am cussing out my bladder. Near the finish are hundreds of spectators cheering, I smell barbecue, and I see the lilac and purple balloons (it's the Lilac Bloomsday Run) flanking the finish line. I am ready to finish strong.

Mile: .46 of 7.46 5:43 (a pace of 10:15)

I try and smile when I cross the finish so I can have a good picture, but I have no idea on what side the camera is or if it's both. Mostly what I know is that I feel awesome. I remembered to stop my Garmin about 10 seconds past the finish and see the time is 1:22:55 for 7.58 miles. I had surpassed my goal of 1:25. And I felt great. I was noticing many people around me complaining about their legs, their hips, their feet. But me? I think I probably had a smile plastered on my face all the way through the T-shirt lines. I was amazed at how awesome I felt, seriously. Not only had I achieved my time goal, but I ran Bloomsday!! It is hard to explain what that feels like, but having been around people for years and years who run or walk this event annually, I am so proud to have completed this event with a time to be proud of. For some, 11 minute miles are laughable, but for me, it is success. For me, it means that I'm living my life instead of watching it go by. I went to go to the Bloomsday after party (read: food fest) at my parents as a real participant, not just as someone who likes to eat. No other race finish has had such a profound effect on me. I loved every minute of this race, even dodging the walkers. I am a runner!!

Purple shirt, purple Bondi Band, purple Ryders glasses--this is the Lilac Bloomsday Run, after all.

Looking back on the event, I think I could have pushed myself more in the beginning if I weaved through crowd. I am already planning on returning next year with a goal time of 1:15. Hopefully my goal for next year along with my time from this year will put me in a more forward color group. If not, I'll just have to get there earlier to line up!

I'm disappointed that I don't have a good race photo, or any race photo really. There is a couple of the entire finish line which I am in, but I am a speck in the crowd. I can order it and crop it, but there is no way to view it cropped to even see how it looks. And since I had no cheering section I didn't get any race photos along the way either. I didn't meet up with my parents at the finish which turned out to be a good thing since they didn't get home until about two hours after me! Dilly dallying I tell you!

My official finish time was 1:22:40. The only drawback to the day: a tan line on my face from the ol' Bondi Band. Oops.

Whew! That was long. Thanks for reading!

Quickie Check-In

2011-05-04T13:02:00.000-07:00

Last Monday's weight: 156.6
Today's weight: 153.8
Loss: 2.8 pounds (9 days)

At this weight, my BMI is considered normal if I say I'm 5'6". It is still overweight at 5'5". Regardless, I want to get below 150! Then there is no borderline. I wll be in the 140s and I will have a healthy BMI! I have not been logging my food, but aside from Sunday's splurge, I have been eating fairly well. For some reason logging anything seems too tedious. I'm trying to keep things in check on the eating front. I'm hoping to get below 150 before my half marathon on July 17.

My half marathon training officially starts next week. I'm following a 10 week program which calls for 4 runs a week and I will also continue with 2 yoga workouts. I am still working out my run schedule. I have been running M,Tu,W,F with yoga on Tu,Th, but I might need to break up the rest days with the increase in mileage. I'm considering a running schedule M,T,Th,Sa with yoga on W,F. I'm just not sure if planning my long runs on Saturday is a smart idea.

This week I am running and resting. I will still post the Bloomsday race recap, but for now I'll say that I was riding the high from my results through a rest day on Monday until 1 mile into a run yesterday. And oh boy, my legs were tight and somewhat rebellious. I finished all 3.1 miles, but it was fairly slow and I stopped to stretch a couple times. This morning, just 12 hours later, I headed out for another 3.1. There is something that's certain--my muscles do not like cold temps. This morning it was about 35 degrees and it was a very hard run. The sun was shining so I wanted to get outside, but I think when it's below 40 degrees, I'm just better off to hit the mill. Tomorrow I recoup with some yoga, and then I'll run another 3-5 on Friday. I will rest Saturday and Sunday and then start my official training on Monday 5/9!! Yay!!

The weekly weigh in that wasn't.

2011-05-02T14:23:00.000-07:00

I plumb forgot to weigh in this morning, how do you like them apples? Oh well.

I will say that I completed negated all physical activity yesterday by consuming many, many calories after the run.

And lookie what I saw at Costco on Friday. Too bad I don't need a copy. Maybe I should have picked one up for a giveway, ha ha. Ladies Choice Collection...you don't say...

Success!

2011-05-01T22:09:00.000-07:00

I successfully finished Bloomsday today!! My Garmin time was 1:22:55 for 7.56 miles. The course is 7.46 miles so my official time will be less-hopefully! I set a goal of finishing in 1:25 so I am definitely happy with my time. Once I have my official time, I'll post an official race recap. This race was awesome, and I can't wait to tell you more about it. In the meantime, here is me on the walk back to my car with the beautiful Spokane River in the background.

77 days until my half marathon!

I did it!

2011-04-30T00:03:00.000-07:00

I signed up for a half marathon. I'm excited and scared. This run is geared towards women of all ages and skill level. I think it will be a good first half!

In the meantime, I have to run 12K on Sunday!! Three cheers for lactic acid!

Legends of the Fall

2011-04-27T16:32:00.000-07:00

My favorite movie of all time is Legends of the Fall. I have mentioned this before (here and here.) I saw this movie for the first time in the theater back when it was released, and by now I have seen this movie more times than I can count; it's definitely in the hundreds. I remember during one semester of college when I was taking only a math class while working full time. Every Sunday, without fail, I would watch Legends of the Fall while doing my weekly homework. Now I have this movie on my iPhone so that I can turn it on whenever I want to. Sometimes if I can't sleep, a little dose of Tristan will be just the thing I need to send me off to dreamland.

They released a special edition of the movie which practically made me froth at the mouth, but then I found out it was only a few seconds of extra footage during the movie which only consisted of an extra sunrise. I wanted more Tristan! There were, however, some deleted scenes which kind of put a few parts of the movie into clearer perspective so that was nice.

This scene is not in the movie.

Every time I watch the movie, I wish for a different ending. I cannot accept the fact that Tristan and Susannah don't end up together. My favorite movie line of all time is when Susannah visits Tristan in jail and says to him, "I still sometimes dream that I am the mother of your children." I have to keep from screaming at the TV "I wish that too!" Seriously, I might have a sickness. Why did Tristan marry Isabelle Two and have children with her?! Why did Susannah and Alfred have to get married?! My favorite scene from the movie is when Tristan comes riding up over the hill with all the horses. You might say that I'm a little infatuated with Brad Pitt in that scene. Okay, in that whole movie. Okay, pretty much in general. (As long as I don't think about him being with Angelina Jolie, that is. I still don't accept that he and Jennifer Aniston are divorced. It seems I have acceptance issues.)

I'm telling you about my love of this movie today so you'll understand how awesome my run was this morning. I finally hooked a DVD player up to my treadmill TV and decided my inaugural movie/run should absolutely include Legends of the Fall!! I started the day with 4 easy miles AND Tristan Ludlow! Now, that is what I call a great start!

What is your favorite movie? Have you ever watched it while running?

This post is long and rambling.

2011-04-26T10:37:00.000-07:00

There was no running yesterday. I didn't get to bed early enough on Sunday night. I didn't even pretend I might get it done in the evening, although the thought did cross my mind several times.

I was preoccupied with rearranging my office last night and ended up going to bed super late again. But I told my son before he went to bed that I was going to get up and run in the morning. I felt like telling him would make it so. Since I went too bed late, I changed my alarm from 5 to 6 and wouldn't you know my son came in at 5:45 to let me know that I didn't run. Oh ho, I said, I am getting up at 6:00. And even though I didn't want to, I did it. I ran 5K in about 34 minutes. Slow and steady. My cable receiver wasn't working so there was no yoga to be had. Boo! I will hopefully get that worked out later and then will be able to do a quick yoga workout while my son is at soccer practice tonight.

If there's practice, that is. Can I just say this is the crappiest spring on record?! We woke up to snow again this morning! Last night's baseball game was cancelled, that's the 2nd one. We're going to have so many make up games it's not even funny! And I just plain need the sun! Luckily we had a nice weekend, but we're back to rain, snow and sleet this week. Right now the forecast for Sunday is sunny and 60 degrees. I will take that for racing weather. I do not plan to attend the event if it's pouring rain or snowing. It's just not that big of a deal to me. My parents have done Bloomsday for more than 25 years in a row so they will be there regardless of Mother Nature's jokes, but I'm sorry to say that I won't.

I posted recently about gadgets and running and I do love me some gadgets! How did I ever live without a Garmin? Since then I have been thinking about running with music, which I love, but I started wondering if I can run without music. And would I like it? I didn't dare try that on the treadmill last week, but on Friday's run, I headed outside without my iPod. And do you know what? I really loved it! First, I could hear everything around me and I felt more relaxed not worrying about someone or some animal sneaking up on me. Second, I loved hearing the birds! This spring has been so awful with rain and snow and cold that I am starting to feel like a hermit crab holed up inside my shell (house). It was really, really nice to get outside and hear nature, hear my feet hitting the pavement, and hear my own (heavy) breathing.

This morning, I headed down to the mill with my iPod. I started my easy run listening to my usual running playlist which contains songs by Lady Gaga, Rihanna, Pink, Nickelback, Rick Springfield (yes, I said it) and Maroon 5 among others. Long about .8 miles into it, I was just annoyed with the music so I parked my iPod on the console and finished out my 3.1 miles sans music. Honestly, running on the treadmill without music was something I didn't think I could ever do, but I did it, and I enjoyed it.

This brings me to my "race" on Sunday. I am considering running sans music. Or at least planning to--I can always stow my headphones in my running belt just in case (I'll already have my phone). I keep wondering if I'll be able to do it, run 7.46 miles without stopping, so I don't know if planning to leave my music behind is a good idea or not. I still have a few days and a couple more runs to think about it. I can tell you though, the thought of one less thing to worry about when I go running, makes me feel a little free. And that is so weird because just a couple weeks ago I was convinced that music was a necessary running partner. And maybe it is, but perhaps we just need to "take some time". Perhaps I just need more solitude right now.

I can't tell you how excited I am for the Bloomsday Expo! I haven't been to a race expo before and I can't wait to pick up some new stuff! One thing I'm on the hunt for is a new running belt. I need something that doesn't bounce and has an element of water resistance. I'm have my eye on the ones from iFitness and they'll have a booth at the expo--I just hope they have the purple ones, or the black with purple! I am also possibly in the market for a handheld water bottle. While I do love my hydration belt, I am kind of ready to part ways with it and give a handheld a try. Not positive on this one, though. I also plan to pick up some new running socks. I don't really need anything else, but it will be fun to look around anyway.

Do you love race expos? Do you use a running belt? Have you ever used a handheld water bottle?

Weekly Weigh-In

2011-04-25T14:47:00.000-07:00

I have so many ideas for blog posts, yet whenever I start to write something, my mind seems to get all jumbled. So for today, I just bring you my weigh in results and a couple observations.

I lost .8 lbs this week. It's a loss, but it's still the scale going up and down over the week without any real reason and that is annoying!

I feel like I have lost some inches (an inch?) around my waist over the past couple of weeks despite not really seeing a change in the scale. I think I can attribute this to twice weekly yoga workouts and a couple other ab exercises in between. I haven't been really consistent with taking my measurements, but I do have some prior reference points so I should measure soon. It just seems like over the last couple weeks I've been using the last hole on my belt no matter what jeans I wear, whereas before I was using the 2nd to last with some jeans (low rise vs. mid rise). This change makes me happy even if the scale doesn't really show much change.

I have not eaten any Easter candy!! I don't really even have the desire which is good. I'm still on more of a salt kick right now and would rather eat chips than chocolate, but I didn't have any of those either.

My 12K is in less than 1 week! I'm skeerd!

Easy Canvas Prints

2011-04-22T21:53:00.000-07:00

A few years ago, in July 2006, our family vacationed with friends for a week on the Oregon coast. It was a beautiful, relaxing week. During this time I was at the height of my scrapbooking obsession and not only did I visit two scrapbook stores while we were there, but I made sure to get lots of "perfect" family and beach photos for the scrapbook.

My most favorite photo from that week is one of my husband and son. It is completely set-up and posed, but it depicts both the beauty of the ocean and the relationship between my guys. This photo can be found in our house in three different places, that's how much I love it!

Here is the photo:

When Megan from Easy Canvas Prints contacted me to ask if I'd be interested in turning a favorite photo into a custom canvas, I jumped at the opportunity because I knew just the one to use. And when they say "easy", they mean it. I simply uploaded the photo to their website, clicked through a few options, and within a week the canvas was delivered. And I love the way it turned out. Here is my new canvas:

I chose the 16X20 canvas. I also decided to go with sepia tones instead of the original color photo because that will look best in our family room. I also think it gives it a timeless look. I chose the 1.5" Gallery Wrap which I think gives it a more professional look. I am very much impressed with the quality of my item.

Instead of wrapping the photo, which actually shrinks the amount of the image shown on the face of the canvas, I used the mirror image. On this photo you can see the clouds on the top edge are the mirror image of those on the photo itself. I love that effect!

I set the canvas on the window sill to show that it truly is just a canvas wrapped around a frame. It is very light so will not require any major hardware to hang it on the wall which I like.

If you're looking for a place where you can easily turn your favorite photos into beautiful canvas prints, I would recommend checking out Easy Canvas Prints. Their website is very easy to use, the presentation and packaging of their product is fabulous, and their pricing is very competitive. What's more, Easy Canvas Prints is a Build A Sign company and both are linked in my sidebar.

Disclaimer: I was provided this canvas for free; the review is my own.